18 June 2012
Inspired by @Fly10 (your post behind closed doors but also your ability and courage to talk about it in other posts)
I guess its okay To talk about it, And seeing its fathers day I may as well expose this s*it,
When I say I'm bad I must be I think, Because my dear old dad Left me to alone to sink,
Not only that when I was a babe He came with a shot barrel gun, Tried to put me in an early grave I was his child thought I'd be his number one,
Not only that he beat my mum As well as me too, Made us feel worthless and dumb At least my siblings never had to live through,
They were lucky only my father They had another man as their dad, I know which I'd rather Instead of feeling I'm so bad,
Finally ran got away free But there's no were to hide, You're the nightmares I see The monster deep inside,
Didn't see you again until I was nine When life had already f****ed me up, To the state I was left crying No one to help me clean up,
But yet again you disappeared Couldn't handle me I guess, I know never will you reappear I think I must have caused too much stress,
No mum and now no dad I'm left all alone in this world, And people wonder why I'm sad Just me myself a girl,
It's a good thing I have mini man For him I have to be strong, I'll never be like my dad I know that I can Never fail I can't ever be wrong,
So do what you like dad We don't need you, Yeah there's days when I'm sad But my heart is always to be true,
No happy fathers day for that fake No need, one I act as woman and man, All you did was never give but take And now I finally understand,
That it wasn't me it was you You don't deserve my heart, My love or anything I can do Because your the one who failed from the start,
Nearly let it happen with my last The one who said he loved me, Now just memories from my past I can now let myself be free,
I'm glad I didn't let it go on Let him beat me down bad, I won't be like my mum, Even if your mini mans dad,
I still have my days Where I don't know what I live for, I hear and listen to what my mini man says And realise there's so much more,
I will pick up and find myself Even after all you did and said, I won't be left dusty on a shelf No longer will you get inside my head,
Bye dad Have a great day, I'm really glad Happy fake fathers day.......
(For both fake fathers)
(Sorry for late post girlie weekend can't sleep yet and I know it's not technically fathers day but this is the time I had to write.....)
Happy Fake Fathers Day Dad...... • Opuss № I