30 June 2012
Now what should I do, I do this crap every fucking time It's like god thinks I love hate, and shit's just waiting in line
I can't believe what I've done, why didn't I wait? I guess hell is my end, cause I'm by the front gate
She's beautiful and popular, but why did I care? It's so typical me to fall for long blond hair
It's fun to fuck her once, and then spend the night faking But I would never have done it if I knew what is was taking
You see, "the one" has finally given me a chance to prove it all That what we have will last through winter, spring, summer and fall
I'm scared now, cause if she finds out, I am dead I mean that, I'll shoot a fucking bullet through my own head
Does it make me a bad person, choosing the wrong one When the right one ignored me for 10 months while I was gone
I understand she was protecting herself from the pain we would have shared But how could I have known she fucking actually cared
But now I guess I'll just have to learn to spend my time above I'm obviously not worthy of experiencing actual love
$*@€!! • Opuss № I