12 August 2012
“I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm upset that from now on I can't believe you” Friedrich Nietzsche
I trusted you once and you broke it. I trusted you twice and you broke me. Broken trust is such a hard thing to repair. Everyone becomes untrustworthy. Doubt and questions purvey every statement, every action. Mistrust and uncertainty become everyday, the norm. I feel angry, as though something wondrous and special has been stolen from me. I want to find it again, but I can’t. I just don’t know where it has gone. I so desperately want to trust again. To trust someone implicitly, without reservation, without thought, without doubt. Maybe I can, maybe I can’t, but if I can’t..... I believe I will be alone forever.
And I don’t want to be.
Trust and Mistrust • Opuss № I