11 August 2012
I almost laughed as I picked up the gun. It'd be too easy. No note, no tears, nothing. Only the sound of the gunshot and the second of searing pain. I have 30 minutes until they're home. I sit down and cross my legs, elbows on my knees, face in my hands. I'm thinking about him. I promised myself I wouldn't. But no promises will matter after tonight, anyway. I think of the most painful memories. When he first asked her out. Hearing about their first kiss. Laughing as I heard how amazing they thought each other were. One of my best friends dating my best guy friend.. That was always going to be painful. I continued with the painful memories. Hearing of how he said 'I love you'. Then how she said 'I love you, too'. Wishing I could scream in their faces that I was madly in love with him.. Liam. My best guy friend, the only one who was there for a very long time. He's gone. Crossed over to the Land Of No Return. Not that I blame Lindsey, his girlfriend. I would love to be in her position.. No idea of how much pain it's causing me. How I haven't been able to look either of them in the eye for months. How they never noticed, too wrapped up to give a damn about the rest of us. Two people asked me out. I glanced at Liam as I rejected each of them, searching for hidden emotions. But he always just pulled Lindsey away for a private chat. I shook my head. 20 minutes left. I wouldn't think of him any more. Why was I delaying? Did something inside of me want to stay?
--To Be Continued--
Why? Part 1. • Opuss № I