Pull

I once rode down a singular trail,
And I saw, a blue jay.
It wasn't as breathtaking as I've heard,
But it was true to itself.
I had to stop, I think it was meant to be,
That I should watch what the universe beckoned me to see.
It flew away.

I wanted to.
So I ran. As fast as I could, till I collapsed…
I fell and couldn't open my eyes,
Eternity…no…maybe an hour passed…
I open to see it's night.
Stars blind me,
Ask me to reap my morality,
Work for my clarity,
Seek beautiful insanity..

Please give me what I ask,
Why wont you? You know Im upto the task!
Wait…wait…wait…wait…
Do i need to carry so much weight?
God, lord, I know this is a test…
But please this is this person's best!
I act like im strong, Im not , Im weak!
Im not cool, im not what you seek….

Please just give me my grand journey,
Where i find something that can hear me,
Cure me of that hate which endears me..
But wait…again…
Isn't all this a bit too unreal?
Too abnormal, too surreal…
For me to be thinking so clear,
Like my heart and soul, is so dear and near…
No, no, i cant wake up…
To go back to reality is cracked up!
Wait a second!
Don't I already possess the dream I beckoned?
This is real…i must fall asleep!
So i close my eyes, nice and slow,
With my heartbeats real low,
I can feel within me a sort of glow,
Creeping upon me…i think…i know…
I think i do…know what i gotta do!
Yes, yes that's it! I just gotta do!
So i dream on…

“Cmon,
Listen to my voice and my silence,
I know please, i cant stand you being gone..
This is just wrong…
Please this pain’s lasting too long!
Don’t go please!”
That person asks on knees!

“i’m begging please!
I need to tell you things, my keys!
My last harbour, my port, my quays…
I have this one last thing!
You need to know! I need to breathe my sigh of relief!
Damn you bloody bugger, pick up the phone!
You ain’t gonna moan! Yu ain’t alone!
I have to say this in your ears,
In a whisper, like a wind through the hills it sears,
She says it, it pierces like a dart!”
She says..”You’re fine…sweetheart”

Thus begins,
The legacy of me and my kinds.
The lights dim,
And all that’s seen is something dark and grim,
But he stands, slows time,
He changes nature, he changes the rhyme!
Of this , of reality,
Again, it reminds me..
Reap your morality,
Work for your clarity..

And one day I promise , that your leap of faith,
Your hopes, will be rewarded…
You will know the gift you received…
For feeling, for choosing to go on living,
And just like me, someday sitting on a lawn,
You will know, that night's darkest before dawn…
And everyone's just a pawn, except you of course, you're gone!
But you will know the secret unknowing,
You will know,
That a dawn is coming…