19 June 2012
I could have been so much more
At school my grades were rather poor
More interested in having laughs and chat
I should have been revising and all of that
I could have been so much more
A veterinary nurse, to train a bore
Or a forensic pathologist, I could have been
Studying was inside, I wanted to be seen
Then a midwife, I really wanted to be
To study at my age it's not meant to be
I never had the drive or passion to do more
Life was hard enough, life was a chore
Things kind of took over in my life
Full of problems and family strife
I wish all that negativity I could have stored
Then back into my life positivity poured
I could have been more if I'd had a chance
To just breathe and live life without backward glance
I know this was the path I myself chose
But so many doors I did wrongly close
I know it's silly to sit and dwell of what could have been
But so many missed opportunities it would seem
Kind of leaves me with a feeling of loss
Life is like a coin that you tentatively toss
So I try to stop these wallowing thoughts
Haul myself out of the net of self pity that I'm caught
For I know I'm so blessed in many different ways
But into the face of my past I sometimes gaze
Could Have Been • Opuss № I