18 December 2012
I’ve always been a child of light
Now nothing but darkness,
Is stalking within my shadows
Leaving me with an unpredictable life
Still…
And always…
Been a leader.
Never been one to follow
But it’s like I can’t even sleep anymore
Because I’m paranoid of what may happen tomorrow
I know I need help
But I keep running as I think I’ll obtain it
And what will my outcome be ?
Praying not death.
I know it’s wrong
But for some reason…
I keep going back to it
The pressure is driving me crazy
What made me look into this lifestyle ?
Frantically watching my back…
Hearing crazed sounds and frightening cry’s
Waking up in cold sweats
Because of deterred dreams
Seeing myself in other people’s shoes
Most…
Not even standing on both feet
My tears are grazing these words as I speak
But that’s not enough to stop my pain
What happened to my mind…
Why did I let it corrupt my peace
Darkness • Opuss № I