awkward 16 year old girl from the Netherlands. All we really have is who we are.. Instagram @foggydreamer
Decisions, decisions, one must make. Without the security, that one won't break. No path to walk, that is clear. No way to turn, without fear. You don't know, you never do.
Sweet sweet silence, won't you speak. This lovely nothing, makes me weak. This thinking kills my fearful mind. For my thoughts aren't always kind..
Let me live in fiction, For I so dearly love it there. Let me be a character, For who I dearly care. Let me be another, That knows what I have yet to find.
Give me a fire, So I can burn it all. So I can silently, watch it fall. Give me a flame, To make it go away. There's nothing left, And I won't stay. Smoke and ashes, Are all I breathe.
It's all dark from where I stand. No light to be seen across this land. No hope left in those kind souls. Just brainless zombies without goals. The world is bitter, is it not.
Will I miss you, My lovely stranger. Will my dreams, Bring me in danger. Lovely stranger, Was it you I've been looking for. Can I have a kiss, Or maybe even more.
You are a snow angel, That has lost it's way. Slowly you are melting, Every single day. I don't know what to do, About you slowly dying. It makes me so sad, To see your body crying.
Every night when I everyone is asleep. I get out of bed and go to the garden, there I climb a ladder that only I can see.
Turn on the lights, To start a new day. Get out of bed, To live a new way. Take it easy, Don't you worry. Because today, We're in no hurry. Be happy, Even when your not.
So, it seems we are still here. Maybe the end is no where near. Maybe it was all just pretend. The world might not even have an end. We'll never know until we do. And then it'll be too late to.
I am a light in the christmas tree. That's all I'll ever be. One time of the year I shine so bright. And the rest of the time I mostly hide. But when I shine I am the happiest person here.
I pity the ones who think of what can be. Those who life without never ending fantasy. When the real world is not enough. Life does not have to be tough. Just think of ways to make it better.
Wouldn't it be nice, if nothing had a price. If a book could talk, and a chair could walk. Wouldn't it be funny, if winter was always sunny. If a cat could fly, and a tree could cry.
Shhh, don't you tell me, how I should be. Shhh, you don't know, why don't you go. Shhh, think and than talk, it's easy for me to walk. Shhh, you've got guts, driving me nuts.
I know it's done, I'm done. Over before it begun. Isn't that how it always goes. Is there anyone that really knows. It's so simple and yet so hard. I just keep falling apart. Pieces fall to the...
I am mad, I must admit. That's one hat I surely fit. All the greatest people are. That's why they've come so far. You ought to be a little insane. To live in a world filled with hurt and pain.
Desperate screams in narrow streets. That is where trouble meets. Moments that can never be undone. And end bad for everyone. Watch it all fall to the ground. Or just for once open your mouth..
Happy for a split second, that's what I'll be. When you hold me in your arms, and it's just you and me. Happy for a minute or less, when you look at me without a blink.
I'm sorry, I died wrong Now I'm not where I belong. Sorry to hurt you dear. But I don't want to be here. I'm sorry, I don't know. How a normal life should go. My thoughts keep coming without end.
I had a strange vision, when I was asleep. I think just for a moment, I slept a bit to deep. It's all so clear, from where I stand. Thank you, for giving me your hand.
Such a purple day it is. when you give me a red kiss. And I close my yellow eyes. And hide from all your orange lies. Such a black day it should be. With this green brain I can't see.
I'm waiting, for a train that might never come. I don't know where it's going or where it's from. I will wait till my body slowly dies down. Because I really need to leave this awfull town..
On this dreadful day I fell in a hole. And on the way down I lost my weak soul. I can still hear it whispering my name. But I know I'm out of the game. And now I sit and wait for my body fade.
My thoughts tire me till I fall asleep. Thoughts forever mine to keep. In my mind I visit the unknown. Where I make a world completly my own. Sometimes the real world is just too small.
I know it's wrong but it looked so good. The way it smelled and the way it stood. It looked at me and said: eat me, eat me. And if I didn't listen what kind of monster would I be.
My sweet child, it's time grow up. Put down your toys and stop. It's to do things you don't want to. Dear child, life is no longer about you. You have to do, do and do again.
Tears of blood from my very first killing. Somewhat frightning and somewhat thrilling. The smell of his burning flesh digusts me. But I know dead is what he should be.
A big stone fell from the sky. Without any reason why. It bruised me and I'm all blue. And there's nothing I can do. Doctors told me I should be dead. It's worst when I forget what they said.
Unseen ghosts in the silent night. With only a candle to be my guide. Walking through these trees with open eyes. While a lone wolf warnes me with his cries. Keep walking, just look ahead.
I'll miss you when I sleep. Silently I will weep. Meet me in my dreams. Protect me from those careless screams. Shelter me from unhappy thinking. Save me when I am sinking. Will you be mine today.
You have this wall, That just wont fall. It build itself from pain and fear. But you know he's now here. No reason to hide now silly little lady. No reason to feel all sad and shady.
Glass made of sugar, may easily break. When it rains, there's not much it can take. It's okay right, you told me so. But I wonder, How could you know. Cracks appear, and I watch it all.
Just felt like doing one, so here I go: My name is Kitty. And I like my name. Even though the "Hello Kitty" is getting really old. I am Dutch. And a tiny bit Indonesian.
A melody, That plays all day. Tells you, That it's okay. Music, Keep me standing. Catches me, When I am landing. Saves me, When I burn. Teaches me, When I need to learn.
Painted, Your skin so white. Darkness, Never seen light. Shadows, That tell the story. Of him, and all his glory. Hidden, From humans view. Fear, Because of you. Escape, And leave this disaster.
I am like a fire, Burning still. With desire, That can kill. I feel pain, As it burns. And sadly, The innocence turns. Burn with me, Or breathe me in. Kiss me, Or shed my skin. I burn, Night and day.
Give me map and I'll tell you where we should go. Which I something only I could know. I know where adventure is at. I know places that haven't been discovered yet.
You could say I have many years ahead. But the past I could never forget. I still miss the days when nothing really mattered. Now with every let down I feel a little shattered.
All curled up in the corner, I am a terrible mourner. Tears falling from my face, Still trying to find my own place. A part of me just died with you. And I know that you are crying to.
Speak to me, with kind words. Fly with me, like we're birds. Dance with me, till we die. Laugh with me, till we cry. You and me, we're one. And our story, it's just begun. You know me, like I know...
A cry for inspiration, Run of desperation. No way to turn, Life makes me burn. Ready to go to sleep, One so long and deep. Ready for endless dreams, To run from the screams.
My feet nailed to the ground. And I wont make a sound. You can't break me, you never will. Keep pushing me, I will stay still. I have this fire burning deep inside of me.
Tuck me in, and kiss me to sleep. Comfort me, when I weep. Tell me things, that make me strong. Support me, when it all goes wrong. Be there, even when I am mad. Cheer me up, whenever I am sad.
The coldness of you heart, Keeps me still. Freezes me, and takes my will. I am no fire, I can't make you melt. Can't make you feel, What I just felt. You're frozen, To the touch.
You and your silent despair, Your pain goes everywhere. Killing everyone on it's way, You keep telling them you're okay. I wonder if you believe your lies, While all the happiness in you dies.
Time to play a diffrent game. A game that doesn't have a name. It's the game of loving me. Which is not easy, you'll see. I'm hard it comes to loving blind. And I am not always very kind.
Burning eyes. Returning lies. Feeling sad. Eating bad. Slowly dying. Daily crying. Little sleep. Never deep. No dreams. Just screams. So tired. Uninspired. About to fall. In it all. Feeling hate.
I try to think long and hard, but there is this annoying branch ticking to the window. Everytime I think I almost have the answer, it's gone almost as quickly as it came.
A scream louder than any cry, A tear of someone about to die. A laugh from a man who still has hope, A smile from the girl that learned to cope.
Drowning in the salty sea, While the fear is taking me. I scream but there is no sound, No air is coming from my mouth. I know I drifting hopelessly away. And there's nothing I can say.
Can't breathe, From the heat. The burning sun, Has now began. To make it's way, Into this play. We cannot fight, This sparkling light. We are to weak, And shall not speak.
Rain frozen, Land chosen. To make white, A brighter light. It falls down, On this town. Watch it play, An make it's way. To the ground, Or in your mouth. Catch it all, Or let it fall.
Most writers know the ending before they even start. But all I do is wander with nothing but my heart. Don't know where I am going but maybe that's okay. I'll just take it day by day.
I'm tired but my mind won't sleep. I sleep a little but never deep. My dreams are foggy and throat is sore. I want three cups of tea or maybe even more. My head is killing me from inside out.
I know this old lady with white hair. Her eyes still sharp and skin still fair. She tells me stories from the early years. As I listen with open ears. You see the experience in her eyes.
Once upon a time. I commited a bloody crime. I took a knife and made red. A now this hater's dead. A pool of blood lies on the floor. As I'm walking out the door. You will never hate again.
You can do it all. If you're willing to fall. You can make your dreams come true. If only you are willing to do. When you put your mind to it. And you really commit. All you want will be.
If I was a bee, no one would get my honey. It's so sweet, it's not even funny. I love all flowers, as bees do. But the one I love most, is you. I'll take all the sweetness, and bring it back.
I breath of misery. And live on pain. This life is worthless. And living is a strain. My mind filled with nothing. My heart is freezing cold. I feel no emotions. And my soul is old.
As you know I am a gate, and this time you are really late. I don't really like to wait. You are no longer my mate. "But gate it's only minutes past eight." Yes, but this gate's time is far to great.
I feel like hiding in a cave. For I am nothing brave. I would rather drift away. So that I survive today. This battle is not my fight. I can't handle this fright. Why don't I just run ahead.
Chasing a ghost I might never find. This love is making me so blind. I wrote you a letter through the sky. In which I finally said goodbye. I won't forever love a ghost.
As night falls on this secret land, This darkness I can barely stand. Darkness is what I fear most. It scares me more than any ghost. In darkness everything can be. Simply because I can not see.
Yes you killed me, now I'm dead. And all because of what you said. Words that still burn in my heart. I should've known right from the start. I'm dead and my body stayed behind.
I'll tell you a crazy fact of mine. There something I love more than sunshine.. ~~~~ I love rain, and always will. When it's pouring, I'll love it still. I love the sound, of the falling drops.
Turn on the lights, so I can see. Where my new path should be. Time to leave my past behind. So I can really clear my mind. Days will pass and time will heal. Till there's nothing more to feel..
I'm afraid of walls, you see. They might fall down on me. Just for now I shall not die. But the ceiling is so high. I always knew this house was weak. We sometimes even had a leak.
Reading books that is my thing. I love the joy that it can bring. Turning pages like a maniac. Missed a word so let's go back. Feeling like a whole new me. I love all the things I get to see.
Sunny mornings after stromy nights. Places lit up by city lights. Snow angels in the fresh snow. Those happy moments we all know. The smell of a freshly baked cake. The sun that sparkles on a lake.
I'm lost please find me, I'm not where I'm supposed to be. It's all so dark when I'm alone. I don't like it when my future is unknown. I'll count the minutes till I'm saved.
Silently screaming to the voices in the night. To the scary creatures that secretly try to hide. A scream that can make a bad man shiver. A scream that can swallow you like a river.
One day I'll fly, higher than the highest sky. My feet where never meant to stand, on this ordinary land. So if one day you have nothing to do. Call me and I'll fly to you.
I am a cloud on a sunny day. I am the words we dare not say. I am a item in the lost and found. I am the apple that fell on the ground. I am here, I know you saw me. I am here, Don't just let me be..
Tell me a secret, whisper it in my ear. Tell me a secret, that only I can hear. A secret never told before, I'll tell you if you tell me more. A secret for a secret that is my deal.
I know I'm falling, but when will I hit the ground. I know I'm falling, bugs flying in my mouth. Maybe this is all a dream, and i will soon wake up.
Everybody can see me, But no one knows I'm here. And even though i do not cry myself to sleep, The wounds in my heart are still pretty deep.