23 April 2012
You don't see what I'm hiding behind this smile.
All the hurt. All the pain. All the anger. All the tears.
All the thoughts. All the words. All the expressions. All the tears.
All the time. It's behind this smile.
You don't understand what you do to me. You beat me down. You hurt me beyond repair. You make me think I can trust you; but I can't. Just another plastic.
I thought we were friends. Aparently I'm too big an outcast. I thought you liked hanging out. Aparently you're only there too get a few free answers on the homework. I thought I could trust you. Boy, was I wrong! Aparently it was just one more thing to throw in my face.
All it took was a month. And you destroyed my faith in humanity again.
But I keep on keepin' on. 'Cause what other choice do I have?
That's what I hide behind this smile.
I thought we were friends. That's how it starts.
But I did- I thought we were friends. Aparently I'm a creeper now. Aparently you hate me. Aparently I stare. Aparently you'd be happier if I were never born.
Why? What'd I ever do? What'd I ever do to you?
I thought we were friends. We are cousins for crepes sake! Aparently I don't know anything. Aparently I can't do anything right. Aparently you're so much better.
Aparently, Aparently.
"Oh, so I'm invisible now? That's cool. I've always wanted a super power. "
but really- I want to scream. I want to cry my eyes out. I want to punch you in the face. I just want to hide from life for a while.
That's just some of what I hide...
Behind this smile.
Behind This Smile • Opuss № I