30 June 2012
Adam ran up behind me and span me round 'I need you Abby, without you... Without you living wouldn't be worth it, so what if you can't have children, there are so many options out there for us like IVF or surrogacy. Abby I love you for you and not for whether you can have kids or not.' Adam said emotionally with a stray tear sliding down his face. He pulled me closer to him and I let him hold me until my phone started beeping. I read the notification and nearly threw across the field, it was one of those apps telling you when you should be trying for a baby. Adam raised an eyebrow at me, 'no Adam, did you not hear what the doctor said.' I sighed, 'yes I did Abby and he said after you left that there may be a small chance of doing this naturally.' he smiled. 'I don't know...' I trailed off. 'come on abby, we might get lucky.' Adam said hopefully. I nodded and we ran back to his room as quickly as we could. The next morning we got a call from the doctors saying that wanted to run some tests to give me a proper diagnosis. We walked hand in hand to Dr Harris' office. I apologized for the drama I had caused yesterday. 'Abby you didn't cause any drama, you found out some distressing news and reacted as anyone else would have.' he smiled kindly at me. 'so today.' he said to both Adam and I 'we are planning on running a blood test, and an ultrasound.' he informed us. I shuddered at the thought of a blood test, I couldn't stand needles. As doctor Harris pulled on his gloves and tied the tourniquet on my arm, I felt the colour draining from my face. Adam walked over and took my face in his hands, he turned my head so I couldn't see the needle, I started to breath in and out preparing for the sharp pain. I jolted slightly as I felt it slip in. I sighed in relief as I felt the needle being taken out. 'right one test down.' dr Harris smiled. Next up was the ultra sound, I rolled up my top and gasped as the cool gel hit my warm stomach, Adam and my face were both pained as usually an ultrasound signaled that there was a baby. The moved the machine around, spreading the gel across my stomach. 'right so nothing appears to have been damaged. So we will have to wait for the blood test results.' As we waited my phone started beeping again. I looked at Adam panicked, he looked at the toilet across the room. 'no way' I said shaking my head. 'what other choice do we have.' he whispered back. I shook my head again but he was already pulling me that way. We walked out sheepishly to see dr Harris standing there with the results, I felt the blood rush to my cheeks and could tell that I had gone bright red. The doctor smiled knowingly at us. As we walked back into his office he told us the result, 'so Abby we compared your mothers test results with your own.' I sat there holding my breath. 'it seems that you have a much higher chance of conceiving than she did, her chances were about 35% chance of having a child naturally, where as you have about a 55% chance, even though this is low compared to other women it does mean that you have a much better chance of conceiving naturally than we first thought. So in other words keep trying, but if it gets to about a year from when you first started trying then we should consider other treatments.' he smiled. I grinned back, and Adam hugged me tightly. We walked out with a huge weight having been lifted off our shoulders and we both walked home with our hearts happy.
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Love And War Chpt.48 • Opuss № I