17 July 2012
I trudged towards the house, gravel crunching underneath my feet. With every step I felt my chest constricting tighter, until I collapsed on the front step choking back sobs, my whole body was racked with uncontrollable wails. Lucy flung open the door, shocked at seeing me in such a crumpled mess. She carried Amelie inside and came and hauled me up and pulled me into the kitchen. She handed me a tissue and then Amelie. I wiped my tears and cradled my precious baby to my chest. Nuzzling into her soft tummy.
As the weeks passed I wandered aimlessly around the house, drifting in and out of rooms, only tending to Amelie and rarely venturing outside. I was a ghost of what I once was. Lucy tried to get me to snap out of the reclusive state that I had slipped into. Instead dark bags formed under my eyes, lines formed on my forehead, my hair hung limply around my face and my whole complexion took on a grayish tint. Lucy tried to give me a break from looking after Amelie but I simply refused her efforts, Amelie being the only reason that I got up every morning.
It had been about a month since Adam had left when Lucy marched into Amelie's room, where I sat watching her sleep peacefully. 'come with me.' she said. I followed her downstairs into the living room. She slipped a disc into the DVD player and turn the tv on. A bright image of Lucy putting makeup on my face popped onto the screen. 'really...my wedding video.' I said, angry tears leaping to my eyes, I was just about to stand up when she found the clip she was looking for. Adam and I were standing opposite each other at the isle, Adam had my hands clasped in his and we both were grinning like fools. I had Adams ring partway on his finger and was reciting my vows to him. Lucy paused the video and turned to me, 'see, did you hear that.' she said with a sparkle in her eyes, that had been vacant in mine since the day Adam left. 'what.' I said exasperatedly. 'you just promised him that you would stay and care for him in sickness and in health. Abby if you really love Adam you have to fight for him, help him remember you.' she said excitedly. I lifted my head slightly, 'I've booked the flights.' she said determinedly, 'we are going to England.'
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Love And War Chpt.68 • Opuss № I