3 June 2012
Broken vase!
Broken in pieces Cutting my hearts in shreds As I lay there in dread for times when things have been said Wishing and hoping to move on and escape I want to live my life again for real this time Make my own mistakes Life and love and find a happy place
I told them they know how it is Every single hurtful thing and stuff he did Don't blame me if I turn away Hard to face every single day Im not the kind to just walk away Its been killing me inside for years Just holding back the bitter tears I been lying to them all Saying everythings great For so many years Hoping and wishing I could amend my fears We have it all I have a man who really loves thats so not true I have nothing and I probably never did I was just a something What I have is someone who takes away All of me I am the one to shout at when he gets mad Im the one to blame for all thats bad Im the one to take for granted Control me with foolish words Of all my bad points for years and years
Im going soon I told them Im leaving him I told them so I said my morals are all I own This marriage has done me wrong Im the victim not the one that done harm I got to be strong Im not giving up hope
Staying here is making things worse for me I need to think a while Need to find out some stuff Put my life right I tell ya though Im not lost the part of me that is not going to put up a fight I love her and I don't want to let her down but I can never give her the stuff she wants if I stay around If she things thats the right way to treat her mum then when she gets older she end up marrying a similar one Who treats her bad A crazy circle and pattern The thought of that is enough to make me pack now
You can't fix a broken vase in pieces You brush it up you throw it away You pick up the flowers You take them somewhere new Where they can stand up strong again Thats what I'm going to do very soon I see the light I see something thats right
I know what i have Is what I been wanting my whole life A love that makes me smile A freedom to be me A love that will never die My girl and me.
Opuss № I