Feel Her Pain

Life can b cruel..,a very cruel beast…a twisted blade of disappointment & broken promises & dreams…and I’ve done more than my fair share. I hate…I despise hurting ppl. I used 2 feel my life’s mission was 2 bring joy. But I often find myself causing pain. The affairs of the heart r of course some of my worst matters. Tho never intentional I always seem 2 break a heart. I spoke 2 someone 2day, just kinda catching her up on where I’m at in life, and the pain I heard in her voice was devastating. It hurt me deeply. Not bcuz I shared her feelings…more bcuz I caused her 2 feel this way. I broke her down all over again in a way I wldnt wish on anyone. And it made me feel like a fuckin monster. It’s the curse of having a sensitive heart. Cuz I dnt see her as an ex or a former lover…I see her as a broken spirit bcuz we…I fell out of love. I know she’ll dust herself off & live a grand & full life…but 4 now…as I go 2 my comfy spot, I’ll know I just opened a new chapter of heartache that she has 2 now overcome. And as much as I love & cherish my choices…I still feel…idk almost evil 4 not being the man I was all those years ago…the man she chose 2 love…the man who loved her back. Little did I know that we wld drift so far apart that just 4 me 2 b able 2 find peace…I had 2 let her go. Damnit…I’m rambling. Ijs…I wldnt go back 2 that…under any circumstance, but that doesn’t mean I dnt feel her pain