27 December 2012
Tied down, locked in
This isn't how it began
Free at once now trapped in
Feels like my world is caving in
Trust was given now it's not
Seems like there's things you forgot
I'm the oldest and tell the truth
So don't judge me for my youth
Almost grown but still a child
I'm mature and in no way wild
You say no without a blink
Don't even take time to think
The old days are gone
The new ones are here
And yet you still make things from the past reappear
You tell me that I'm grown
But yet I can't be trusted to make decisions on my own
How will the world accept me when I'm of age
When you currently keep me trapped in a cage
No hanging out with friends for more than a few hours
There's no point in arguing because you have all the power
Sure I could rebel
But where would that leave me
Grounded.. Pssh okay... I'm 19
You treat me like I'm 10
And you wonder why I don't ask...
Ask the simple yes or no question
Why? Because I remember the past
I remember you saying no.. Way too many times
But when I use the word
It's suddenly a despicable crime
From one place to another
I still feel trapped
You say I can leave at any time
But we both know you don't mean that
And even if I do...
You'll tell me where I can go
You'll forbid from making of choice
A choice I made on my own...
You don't want to lose me
But yet you keep pushing me away
I don't even say Good Morning anymore
I just simply say...hey
There's no feeling behind it
No emphasis at all..
I awake and feel trapped
Behind these four white walls
God gave me you to watch over me for a bit
Not to try to control me and throw an outrageous fit
You say you want to be nothing like her
But yet you're the spitting clone
I feel lucky.. To even be able to pick up a phone
After all that's the only way I communicate
And I have to cherish the moments face to face
Because...I don't quite know when I'll see them again
After all... They're only...a few of my close friends
But that's right...you control who I see and what I do
I thought it was under God's discretion.. Not left up to you
But just like most leaders your power is abused
I reject every enforcement of it because it is misused
But there's no point in arguing, no... It's not any good
You'll go on being you.. and I'll continue being...
Misunderstood.
Misunderstood • Opuss № I