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"What's wrong. Why are you yelling at me." Said Mae's papa. " . . . " " Is there anything I could do to make things better. " possibly kill me. ignore me.
Heart beats fast. Colors and promises. How to be brave. How can I love when I'm afraid to fall. But watching you stand alone. All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow. One step closer.
It's close. It's coming to an end. Our world is getting old. It's dying from all the hatred, and hurt it's been through. With so many wars, and cuts. But if it does end, Would I really care.
"You don't get me. I don't get myself most of the time. I'm confused, and no ones here by me. Kill me.".
(Read part 6 to understand) She said words that caught Mae's eyes. Mae ignored the monsters.
Little, stupid girl. Laying in bed. All dressed in black. Hairs damp, she just came out of the shower. . remembering the memories of crying pain, and shades of red.
Around this time of year; December. I often miss the little girl who'd wake up at 5 in the morning. Quietly tip-toeing towards the living area. Trying to see if Santa has came yet.
Girl:"What's that?" She nervously looks down, toward her thighs, covered with cuts, understanding what the girls saying.. Mae:"I fell." It was a lie. Though; Part of it was the truth.
Sitting, staring blankly at a white wall. Hairs tangled, it's falling out. Loosing it's color. Lil' Ole Mae. . . What has happen to our lovely daughter?.
For every mistake you've made in her life; She'd go up stairs, with razors in her pockets. Tallying up, drawing lines. Drips of red coming out. You'll see. You'll regret..
I fucking hate you. I hate my brother. I hate my mother. I hate friends. I hate family. You've ruined my life..
An Apple A Day Will Keep The Doctor Away..
The loud sound of Rushing water blocks out her cries for help. The water turns a shade of red.The monsters she thought was under her bed, was now in her head..
This girl I see; Isn't what she used to be; She hated the way she looked. She hated her flabs She hated the names. What possible thing Could this Fat Pig Do to herself to stop the pain.
Strips her wet clothes off. Been running in rain, crying out her pain. Wishing she could take it all away. Lil Ole Mae..
Maybe one day it will be ok again. That's all I want. I don't care what it takes. I just want to be ok again..