28 May 2012
Chapter 3 - Part 3
I couldnt believe Dan had told her. I kept wishing it was something else. That afternoon I paced around trying to make sense of it all. Eventually, I picked up the phone to call him.
Why are you calling me? He said answering his mobile.
Dan, have you told her?
Yeah, I love my wife and I need you to back off and let us try and work things out.
I . I didnt know what to say. I dont know what Id expected him to say but it wasnt that. Im not trying to make things worse.
Just you calling me will make things worse.
Im sorry. Just, I wish you had warned me.
Warning you wouldnt have made a blind bit of difference. Besides, you told me that we couldnt be friends any more. Thats not exactly an invitation to call you.
Im sorry I apologized again. He was making me feel like this was all my fault. The guilt was unbearable and I felt embarrassed for pretending like nothing had happened in the hope that it would go away without anyone getting hurt.
Good bye Lou-Lou. He then cut the call before I could say good bye myself. I went to the dresser in the dining room and opened the bottom right-hand cupboard. I pulled out a bottle of wine and grabbed a glass from the kitchen.
In the garden, I poured myself a glass and washed away the harshness of the day with the bitter sweet of a bottle of red. I had been here before, seven years ago. Last time, Cristina brought me back from my dark place but now I had no-one to show me the way out. This time, I had no-one to blame but myself. I was alone.
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