4.2 Daisy Chain

Chapter 4 - Part 2

My sister had cooked me a gorgeous meal in her open plan red and
chrome designer kitchen. It was a modern flat but the second bedroom
had been turned into an office. She had made up a bed for me with too
many scatter cushions. I had made a heap on the floor. I had already
put on my pajamas, washed my face and brushed my teeth for bed. Now,
I knew I was finally alone. I pulled out my wedding album and admire
how handsome John had looked that special day, how happy and in love
we had both been.

I wanted that back, I did! It’s just, every time I thought about
where he’d been and what he’d done, I instantly felt sick. Maybe I’d
have been better off if had never confessed, I could have carried on
in ignorant bliss that we were the perfect married couple. To undo it
and go back to what we had would be perfection. I couldn’t even work
out what I’d done wrong to drive him into Lulu’s arms.

There were no words to explain how betrayed and disrespected I felt by
Lulu. She was supposed to be my best friend and I had done so much
for her. When her husband Dan left her, I looked after Jazz. When
she needed a job with flexible hours, I got her in at the hotel. When
she needed a friend who’d never known her husband, who wasn’t taking
sides, I was there for her. ME! And this was how she repaid me. She
knew more than anyone the pain of divorce. At least she knew she
hadn’t treated Dan right before he left – self confessed - but me,
I’d loved John and been a perfect wife. Why did they do this to me!?

I knew I wouldn’t sleep tonight so I’d already taken one of my sisters
sleeping pills that she uses when she goes on holiday as she doesn’t
like flying. Slowly I could feel the calm wash over me and my
thoughts turn to mush. Peace in slumber, I welcomed it. Before I
could drift off into serenity, I felt the cold draft of a wind tickle
across my back, reminding me that tonight I slept alone after years of
the comfort of another pressed against me. His breath, his scent,
always is soothing as I drifted off but tonight the longing ache for
his absent touch caused my heart to ache.

“I will get him back and when I do, I’ll make Lulu suffer.” Was my
last thought as my eyes shut and the world turned to black.