I Detest You
You make me sick.
A spirit that is slowly becoming free from the shackles of life.
You make me sick.
Now you're gone There's an empty space on the train It shouldn't be there But it is We used to sit there Now and again Chat Talk Asking Where will it end.
I remember your smile. Sitting there. Having a smoke. Listening to music. I waved at you. You smiled. Que tal. You said. We talked for a few. I said I was walking up. Que vaya bien. You said.
It's hard to believe. There's a free space on the train. Now that you are gone. We sat there. Chatting. I remember we asked where would it end. I never thought it was here. Today. You lying there.
You robbed me. Of the most important. Years. I can never get them back. Never relive them. Your only power is to deny me these years. To block me. You robbed me of my child growing up.
They say it is Perhaps they are right Maybe we chase dreams Put on green tinted glasses When you reach the other side Will you see greener grass. Are we constantly trying to find greener grass.
My bags are packed. A few hours till I go. Another airport. Another plane. Another hotel. I wonder where is home. When will I arrive to that place. I take with me memories. Of people. Of places.
It seams we are caught in a circle Going around and around Same patterns coming around again Like a circle A circle has no beginning and no end But humans have both Thus why do we find it hard to...
Truth is I can't complain I have a job A life In healthy Living in a beautiful city I should not complain But I want more Is that ok?.
It's seems so great So glamorous Exotic places Long haul planes Sleepless nights Tables for one Trying to eat healthy Early to bed Missing loved ones Travelling is not so exciting.
I got what I wanted Travel Living abroad But I lost what I love Partners Daughter Stability Hugs When you get what you want You also can get more of what you cherish.
Honestly Who do your pretend to be. What do you want to be. Your full of bull I'm sorry With your posh restaurants Sampling your wines Are you better than others.
Why does it happen . Why is it not working. Why won't it stop. Why. Why. Why. My friend why finds no answers.
I hate to see you go I hate to say goodbye But I know sometime somehow It will work out Till I see you again I love you.
This time lat year My bags were packed I was ready to go To leave an old life And begin a new one Who would have though A year cam pass so quickly It's brought many changes Let's this year.
Hey mini bunny It's your first day if your new school Sorry I'm not there to kiss you goodbye Sorry I'm not there to dry your tears Sorry I'm not there to collect you You know I'm there in...
In the heart of the city. Sitting here. On a bench. Watching the world go by. Lovers meet. Couples great. Children play. It's my place. To disconnect. Timeout. From the beat of the corporate drum.
It's glumday morning. The day after Sunday. Weekend over. 5 more days ahead. Sat on train. Everyone glum. Back to the grindstone. No worries only 20 years of this day. I want to change. And I will.
This time I will It's time to stand up and revolt Against the chains that shackle me To be free of all corporate ties To live the life I can and deserve Watch out here I come.
You're gone It's hard Theres a void An emptiness Your games are here Ice pops in the freezer Waiting for you To return.
Review of 41 lessons Review by Terry Telford Richard Butler is a man who is travelling through life literally and figuratively.
I'm waiting for that moment. The ahha moment. The change. The release. Maybe that's the problem. I'm waiting. Being passive. Rather than taking the bull by the horns. Now let me look for that moment.
It could be time to be reborn again. To rethink life. To define what I want. It's simple. Freedom. Love. Creativity. Freedom to do and go where I want. Love of people life and you.
I'm 40 I can't believe it Half my life gone And what an I show for it. Should I have anything to show. If so who's says and why. What do I want.
We go around and around. Always in motion. Rarely stopping. Now and again we get a new wheel. It's shiny, new, and better. Soon we tire of that wheel. We never think. Jump off the wheel.
Alarm goes off Eyes open Hand reaches out Snooze Alarm goes off Eyes open Hand reaches out Snooze Alarm goes off Up out of bed Shower And go Thus starts another day.
I'm looking For a solution What's the problem you ask. Not finding the way I reply Solutions are there But I can't see then Yet.
That there was another option Something else existed A life beyond the mundane But you just could not reach out and grab it You tried but it slipped away However it keeps coming into view Then...
Can you believe it.
Sometimes I wonder Is this it. I mean is it all about work Eat Sleep Play In that proportion Can we not do it the other way around. If live is to be lived why do we work so much.
I don't want you to go. I dread the day you're going. You're so close to me. I can hear you. You ring on the phone. Outside I see you. I make you laugh. Hear you giggle. Mostly we are worlds apart.
It's hard to say goodbye. Again. Don't think about. Don't talk about it. Be strong. It's goodbye for now. Soon it will be hello again. Then goodbye. I'm getting used to it. But it's hard.
11 days ago I was here. Waiting for the world to wake up. I'm here again. Waiting to be taken. The air is clear. Quiet. A village nestled. In the mountains. A sleep. Yet to wake. Another day.
I went looking for my bunnies. And you where there. As always. Waiting. In fact when I landed I saw you. Scared when you saw me. Running away. But watching. Always there for me.
I always thought their was light in the tunnel. We've always been told there is. And for months I thought it was true. As much as I looked I could not see the source. But there it was.
Cheap in price Would you like an extra.
All is calm All is tranquil There is no fuss No rush Before the world wakes up.
Hey little bunny. I saw you today. When I went out for a walk. I think you saw me. You looked for a second. And then ran away. Later on in I saw you. Hopping along side me.
I want it to be with you Still holding hands Laughing And being silly Still loving each other Still caring Still listening Still with you.
I'm in the woods but lost The wind whips around me Not caring but taunting Lashing me with cones at every step Is it getting darker Or Are the trees closing in on me.
Deep in the woods. Lies a hotel. Big and sprawling. And full of stories. It's former occupants nuns. Pure and sweet. Alone in the woods. So alone. No one around to. Watch over the children.
Travelling Hotels Dinners Breakfasts It all blurs A world in motion Never stopping Flying away Where does it stop Does it end. Away from the pain Towards the gain.
I've seen lots of bunnies today. Cute. Running free. Stopping to look. Afraid. Running away. I like the bunnies. They remind me. Of two bunnies I love. One who does not run away.
It's a question. With no answer. We can't ask what if. We can only do. Remember try. Leads to not doing. Don't think what if. Think can do. Take a risk. Take a chance. It's better to say. I did.
Money Stress Problems Solutions Opportunities Adventures Happiness Love Being You decide.
When I get older it will change. When it reaches a few years it will change. My life changed. For the better. I'm still waiting for karma. I'm still waiting for it to come around.
My life is not what you think Yes I'm happy in sorts But sad in others You imagine what you want Dream the dreams you lost Mourn the life you have But don't envy mine.
When the love stops. The hate starts. Hate brings out the worst. You can hate me but you can't break me. You take from me what I love. But you can never steal my memories.
The unknown Honestly I don't know you I just saw you now But you made an impact Maybe that's the problem Even those who did know you Did not actually know you Why wait to cry for help When it's...
A few hours ago I met you You were new to me And me to you You asked me out No one else did Thanks We played mind games of sorts And connected Thank you.
Interesting I said Interesting that you said that he said Why i said Because its a stop word he said Interesting.
People are different. I don't mean how they look. Rather how they are. Some wear make up. Others wear masks. Some dress to impress. Others dress to make a statement.
I like to run. It puts a distance between the old me and me. I run in any direction I can. As long as it is away from me. The old me is a good runner too. Always catching up with me.
Sure we ask where is he. Hidden among all the look Alikes Have you stopped. And stated to ask Who is Wally.
I am better than you. I earn more. I have a bigger office. I travel more. I am better than you. I do what I want. I control people's lives. You might have more than me. You might earn more than me.
Sitting there. Mr corporate America. Giving out about workers. Stressed to the limits. Working harder. For less. With more fear. Sitting here. Eating dinner. Drinking wine. Laughing.
Sometimes the conversation stops. Sometimes there are no words. Sitting having dinner with your colleague. You run out of things to say. That's when you turn. To your phone. Tap tap tap.
I've tasted the life I want. Savored the very core of it. And I like that taste. It's a life where I make the rules. I don't follow them. A life where I decide what to do.
Life is like a Threadmill sometimes Do you ever feel like that.
I don't get it Left baggage Going around and around And around If its your baggage Why leave it behind. Do you want someone else To pick it up Is that it?.
Your flights delayed. For operational reasons. Your credit card has been declined. For operational reasons. Your bank is charging you to do your own transactions online. For operational reasons.
Honestly I don't want to find myself I know who I am What I want is to be discovered For I am a star waiting to shine.
Why do you love. What do I have to offer It seems only pain Memories and hardship But you love me And stick with me It's unbelievable really But I'm gladl.
Kids don't have our issues. They get on. They meet in the park. What's your name. Want to be my friend. Sure. No hassle. No preconceived notions. No hassle. We need to return our minds.
I am sorry Its not your issue But it has become yours I don't want it to be yours But what can I do.
I'm waiting to take off. To fly away. To be away from what is here. However what is here is also there. If I'm there it's there. If I'm here it's here. Someday it will go away.
I looked for my life. Here and there. Even looked back in case I had left it behind. But when I looked back it was gone. I'm glad it went away that day. That month. That year.
I remember the day. I (thought) I lost my life. It was the day my life changed. Those fatal words. Killed my work. Those fatal words. Changed my life. With that change. Came other changes.
A little birdy told me so. I read what he said. It must be true. Since its true I said it too. And soon is spread and it grew. The story was in fact a lie. But now the whole world knows.
I find it funny. In a way. Here in Brussels and not one sprout. Maybe what we expect in the place we go. Is not what we get. Don't you know. Perhaps when we stop to look.
When we were kids. We dreamed of living in the clouds. In a world that looked real but did not exist. Now we're older our life is stored in the cloud. Our lives exist in this virtual world.
Coming home is easy If you know where home is I guess it's where you are happy With the one you love Hunny I'm coming home Very soon In the air There I'll be Nearly home Nearly there.
I'm quiet Although I'm loud I'm timid Although I love centre stage I can struggle being me But mostly the struggle is in my mind not my soul The contradiction is simple.
I once had a tablet. It made me sick. It was smaller than I thought. But everyone had one. So I bought one too. But I bought a cheap one. It made me sick. It was meant to make me happy.
You shouted that at me. I ran in from play. The smell of food. Making me happy. Roast chicken and potatoes. Peas and gravy. All in its place. To this day that meal.
If I ask that question. You'll tell me what you do. What you did. But not who you are. My answer. I am me. What you see. What you hear. When I ask myself that question that's my answer.
Lying here Kind of full Rain has stopped It might start again At any time Can't get sick so I'll stay in And make an excuse Not to go out.
The perfect combination they say R and B Musical Rhythm We move together To a perfect beat Two world collide Together in one Perhaps that is the magic of R and B.
It started Slow. It took off fast. Nose in the air. Then it reached a great height. The engines stopped. Or so it seemed. As accustomed as I was. My heart missed a beat. For a second I thought.
I saw you. At the weigh in. Nervous but hopeful. You ate a bit. You enjoyed a lot. You went up. You went down. What did you change. What did you write. You cut it out. You bit it twice.
I like photos. I like to shoot. I like to look. I like your face. You have a book. Which has no end. You've got the dollars. that you can spend. Take me over. I'll sell out. I'll let you post.
Honestly I'm free. You cant find me. Im free. Let me check in. Let me face the book. I'm for square. You can't find me. I'm alone. My status says so. Why do you seek me. When I tell you where I am.
I'm alone How are you .
Id love to work. Really I would. As long as you pay my rent. My bills. My kids school. My bookies bet. And my birds apartment. Id like to work honest. I'm ready to work. At the drop of a hat.
You left your steak. It was red. You supped your wine. Before you went to bed. The cow that died. Was not your friend. It's fat kept it warm. But you rejected it. And returned its friend.
Opuss day you are not You promote freedom.
You betrayed the lord. With your lies. But you changed the mind. With your smile. Your smile appears. From the s. You my friend. Are the best. Your redness is intense. Your neck itself is tight.
Cousin benson I see you. Welcome I'm glad you came. You know your stuff. You know your way. Your take my money. With your stay. You use the net. To gain your hold. Upon a county that has no gold.
They say there's a secret. That can help you. Achieve what you want. Be who you want to be. Succeed to higher levels. They made a book. They made a movie. The secret is out there. It's no secret.
Monks are near saints. They say. Close to god. Near to heaven. You've made the piss of the devil. For me to drink. Does god love you. Do you love god. To make the piss. That kills the mind.
Bread I love you. But you bloat me. It's not your fault. It's me. Your wheat is sweet. Your texture nice. Let me cover you in butter. Yum yum. Let me dip you in sauce. Make you change.
We ate alone. You. Me. Him. And. Her. Alone but together. Together but alone. A glass of wine. A glass of beer. Looking around. There are others here. Alone too. Away from the ones you love.
Restaurants surrounded by narrow streets. A half naked man shoots a picture. From a balcony. The couple sit in their private balcony. Consuming the ambiance. That it is to be born again.
I want to be free to wander the streets. To go where I want. And come back from where ever. The city holds so many opportunities. For me to fulfil my dreams.
The streets are narrow. Where the pizza shop is. Multi coloured clothes. Hanging from the balconies. Narrow streets. Full of stories. History. And character. People cycle by without looking.