12 February 2013
Huahhh.. How long has it been? It's been months since I last opened this app to write down some thoughts. I bet it's even longer for you! Hahaha.
So.... It's been almost a year already since you got into that relationship with your ex. Also since I got my heart broken. Haha!
Do you remember when we met at the Orphanage House a day after Valentine? I was so eager to spend the day there, because I knew I didn't have anyone to celebrate Valentine day with, unlike you :p I didn't knew that I was gonna see you there. (If only I knew, I would've dressed better.) But when I saw you, I was very excited! Maybe you didn't notice, but I stole a lot of glances at your way. I just can't help it.
At that time, I had no idea what my feelings towards you were. Was it crush? Or just merely friends? But since I didn't want to get my heart in trouble, I just assumed that it was only a feeling toward a good friend.
A friend who was about to start a relationship with someone else.
A little part of me knew that you were already into that girl, so I kept telling myself to end the feelings for you. "I should be happy for him," I told myself then.
And I did. I told myself that you were out of my league. You deserve someone great, and clearly that someone wasn't me.
So time passed and I was happy enough flying solo. Til one day you joined me on Path. At the time Path wasn't very well known, so you greeted me on Path and I remember seeing you at Campus a few days after that and you asked me for my guidance.
From that, we started commenting on each other posts, and I also found out that you were in some kind of trouble with your girlfriend.
You also talked to Gaby about your problem. Of course as a good friend Gaby would share your problem to me and Ratna, we were worried about you.
One thing led to another, you ended up breaking up with your gf.
I was genuinely concerned about you, and it led us to chatting frequently on bbm for 'galau' session. Thus it became a daily habit.
Somewhere between those meaningless chats, you asked for my number when you were half asleep (or did you?) and I gave it to you. Hahahaha I didn't usually give my numbers to anyone but I was kinda 'sungkan' to you.. So, lucky for you.
We talked on most nights for hours. Remember breaking records for every day call hours? And we'd post something on Path, or tweet something happy after every call.
In your stories you were telling me about this girl you refer as 'Princess of China' and how you like her so much.
I was curious in who that lucky girl could be, and I asked you to tell me. A few times you refused to, you said you need the right time to tell me.
Until one day you decided to tell me, in the middle of the night, straight to my face, who 'Princess of China' could possibly be.
So you came to my house at 2 in the morning like it was the normalest thing to do for a friend.
You wore a green jacket and basketball short. Your hair was a mess. I'd thought, "Who the heck is this girl, you'd risk coming to me this late at night in such a mess?"
Then you pulled out a paper with a drawing of a 'rose' and a novel then handed it to me. It was a Paulo Coelho's!! My fav.
And then you told me--while rattling my house gate out of nervousness--who that lucky girl is.
It was me.
You asked me to be a woman--not a girl--who'll stand by your side through the good and the bad times, and in return you'll try your best to always make me happy.
I was jumping and screaming happily--in my heart--I tried to keep my cool, so I could only duck to hid my stupid happy face.
And then I said it, that your feelings were mutual.
I told you how I've kept feelings for somebody in the class of 08, starts with R, ends with A. Hahaha, I remember your face lightened up when I said that!
I was gonna tell you more about it, but my Mum was upset and asked you to leave because she'd thought you were a burglar. So you left. And I came back to my own room giggling like mad.
Now, hasn't time passed so quickly, my love?
You're already mine, no longer hers.
And I'm hell satisfied of how destiny works out so well for both of us.
Like the sayings, two people who are meant to be together will always find their ways. :)
So, • Opuss № I