Reality Of Light (ESP 3)
Reflection of light silhouettes my frame, another day walking about, playing this human game..
Started writing poetry officially in 1991, enjoy reading Edgar Allen Poe, reading and dissecting the Holy Bible, and listening to beautiful/inspiring people. Age has no bearing on creativity. Some of the most beautiful things come from those of much lesser age and life experiences. So listen to those young people!
Reflection of light silhouettes my frame, another day walking about, playing this human game..
Alone in the shadow of a dim street lamp, wondering about in a state of haze, self pity in my confused daze. What is so wrong with me, that love avoids me, in a panicked flee.
Cold and left alone in the dark, no love to mend my broken heart..
ESP 1 (Emotional Short Poem 1) "The light of hope rises with the sun, touching my skin, it relieves me of my tainted sin"..
A passage yet unseen, my current life is anything but clean. Mistakes have taken there toll, burden down with so many regrets, so many good deeds everyone often forgets.
They go back and forth, blaming each other for their mistakes, yet they give in to their fear, if he could only see and she could only hear.
On the edge of the horizon is where you hear them speak, voices of the past, into my mind they creep. Spirits circle me, fighting for my attention, to see a living person, is their only real...
It never fails, it always happens to me, all my girlfriends have issues, it's like cupid has something personal against me.
Pushed beyond what this body can take, blurred vision fills my stare, falling in slow motion, no one seeming to care.
Trust in me if you dare, I will give you your flesh's desire, this I swear. Believe in me and you shall see, grief of your enemies, I will deliver unto thee.
You lie with such a serious face, your level of deception unmatched, leaving me shamed and disgraced..
Leaving me alone to sexually gratify another, torn by your lie, you slept with my brother..
Out of your sight, sends me to heaven, every-time I check on you, your cheating on me with a guy named Kevin..
Time to wrap this night up, had a great time with my friends, into the night my drunken joy sends. Crossing the street on a red light, struck and killed in plain sight.
Losing ground, darkness pushes us back, our light grows weak, helping the souls on Earth, is truly what we seek.
Respect things that complement peace, items that cause hate, remove them from your plate.
Everyday he stands along, talking into empty air, his life seems so deprived, really not fair. Yet, in all his seeming grace, never once does a frown touch that face.
In the evening things move about, my sight cannot see, when I wake to look, they all run and flee. Such curious creatures, they never leave a trace, Just one glimpse is all I ask, to look upon a face.
Remember if you will, the day that sat quite still. A moment frozen in time, with no reason or rhyme.
The soft touch of her skin, causes me to think of sin. Lust that just isn't right, in my mind a constant fight.
The smell of leather, colored lights flood my vision, a change of thought, a lifestyle revision.
Her dress so white, she turns and walks away, another life change for me, I just want to scream. She used me and took my love away, no reason to live past this day.
I can't remember the time I last smiled, it has been quite awhile. What is there to laugh about anyway, depression will loom if I stay.
My life is colorful, yet gray seems more the norm, clear consciousness is quite the fight, the reality of our daily human storm..
Hoping for a new chance, my life takes a turn, hoping for a better future, what we all yearn.
Ideas like this are far and few in between, reality crushed from their point of view, how can they doubt my intent, when in reality they need my consent.
Can't they all go away, trying to convince me they are right, just bringing up the topic, causes quite the fight.
Darkness consumes within, yet a flicker of light in the end will win. Don't lose all hope because of your weaknesses, because every time you fall, your character picks you up, making you stand tall..
Fear consumed me as a boy, voices always came to my room, hiding beneath the covers, believing they would protect from being consumed.
Tightness in my chest, failure looms for me again, her cutting words hurt me deep, emotional imbalance my only friend..
I know it's wrong, I wish I could just stop, bad habits take control, something I wish I could drop. It never fails, just when I think I'm good, evil loves to return, this is understood.
My misery can not be easily explained, my life partner gone, unbearable sorrow has left me stained.
Watching in amazement, their eyes filled with glee, spending all their money, as if it fell from a tree.
Stress converges in the mind, causing physical dissension, minus you in my life, than everything would be just right..
Unsure and alone in this strange place, your gleaming stare goes right through me, such an uncaring face..
A place I love so dear, beyond this reality, my conscious so clear. Unhindered by the limits of the body, rules of reality don't apply, no wings needed, just watch me fly.
Vision blurs as I cross the line, between awareness and dreaming sublime. Goodbye to this consciousness, the joy of this reality release I must confess..
Far away with my friends, entertaining millions a year, yet most people fear my looks, if they only knew the real me, then they could truly see.
It seems life's problems never die, just when I think its better, the reality makes me cry. When life seems at its end, I jump in my car, my one true friend.
I found her hidden behind a tree, frozen to ground, locked in a permanent frown. Dressed in white, taken in her prime, a beauty no one could deny, a shame it was her time.
It never fails, he calls me his friend, scaring me senseless, at about 10:00. First the banging noise, followed by the sliding of my closet door, I quick hide under my covers, more terror is in store.
Why do you always lead me on, making me want you so, craving for your very touch, thoughts of lust begin to flow. I want something more, than just ten minutes of flesh, thrown all over this floor..
How can I stay focused, when you can't make up your mind, I think staying with you, is just a waste of my time.
The fight for domination, only one can survive, the look of fear in their eyes, the smell of battle, causes them to thrive.
I can't remember the last time we held each other tight, now loneliness just fills the cold night. It has been six months since you left me, under the shadow of the willow tree.
Roses are red, your face a dark blue, you left me for my friend, what else could I do. All your love just lies, you never really cared, I thought we had something special, many memories shared.
A drive through the park, same time everyday, she sits in the same position, with her sad look of gray.
Greasy black hair, eyes highlighted so dark, different from other girls, she plays her unique part. Always appearing at the end of my dreams, Sad and alone, it always seems.
I just can't seem to follow the flow, even nice people hate me so.
Movement through time, they have no home or place, remembering only regrets, depression fills their face.
Songs echo in twilight, shadows enjoy the melancholy tune, day shifts to the darkness, movement of evil resumes.
Her cries never seem to stop, the night only brings dread, beaten by the one she loves, nearly left for dead.
I can't believe you would do this, have sex with my best friend, my anger boils over, my emotions to hell you send.
You can never understand me, our eyes never meet, it's like I'm walking along, down a cold empty street.
They look so good together, their smiles are just so fake, as if they needed to impress, like a political position is at stake.
What were you thinking, these are not dress pants, I guess you think it is cool, I will beat your ass back to fashion school.
Forgotten and pushed to the side, my creations throw me to the wind, they feel no shame in their daily sin.
Tied in a room, left for dead, the leather restraints cut deep, into the flesh of my head. Taken against my will, a life not worthy to save, a breeze adds to the chill, the blackness of this grave.
A quick glimpse before I go out the door, another busy day in store. They smile as I wave goodbye, the small young girl begins to cry.
The debate rages on, far too deep to perceive, arguing with my friend, on how she fills his need.
It's under control, we got this life, no need for God to provide any advice.
We were married in the spring of 1952, we were called the perfect couple, the inseparable two.
A dark lonely room, emptiness left by sin, when will I be forgiven, when will my rebirth begin. Can I ever be clean, what can make it right. Will I ever be forgiven, in their condescending sight?.
Lost in a field of grass, winds move me as I go, memories of my past, sad emotions begin to flow.
Every morning around 2:00 am, my closet door opens wide, messages from the man inside, of occurrences on the other side.
Moving between sparks of light and shadows of a curtain's fold, my death and rebirth, the shaman thus foretold. Her face I have seen before, almost as if I knew what fate was in store.
Darkness fills my room, as the sun surrenders its last light, serenity is often found, in the void of the night.
How will they view me, I hope they will be nice, begging for friends, often comes at a price. Fears fill me again, this has gone on for years, maybe one day, I will be released from these fears..
It's urges pulse like the beat of my heart, what will trigger it, to once again start. A glance here, hidden beneath the screen, it releases it fury, followed by a scream.
Spinning fast beyond control, I often worry about my very soul. Skilled in controlled chaos, I have never seen peace, only death could be my much needed release.
Thrown out of control, shattered pieces of life, cut by the sharp edges, my frustrated daily strife.
A lonely walk on a well beaten path, nature all around, me and my staff. Water flows down a small little stream, everything seems to be floating, a wonderful zen dream.
She comes at night, excited to see my face, her cloths stained red, her skin cold as the dead.
Darkness fills this room, the floors stained in red, is this truly a dream or am I really dead. Void of light, the dark fills my head, visions of violence, wishing I was dead.
They think I really care, emotions I understand, yet hate is what I love, pushed with a violent shove.
Waking in the morning, my alarm didn't call, as I look off my bed, the clock broken from the fall.
Gone for months, lost in darkness, no way out in sight, shadows reach out, escalating the fright. Why would mother abandon us, throw us to the wind, were we a burden of unforgivable sin.
Lost in my confusion, the world revolves around me, people go through life in need, what have I done to answer their plea. We are so consumed with ourselves, others who suffer, we put on shelves.
Trees bare of life, just silhouettes of branches, lost in the gray, pondering whether to stay. This time of year always leaves me depressed, feelings of inadequacy, I try to keep repressed.
I've been doing well, memories I had finally let go, yet here I am along, with nothing more to show. I miss the beauty of your face, this lost love I can never replace.
Nothing seems right in her eyes, I can't tell the truth from her lies. She comes in all hours of the night, blood on her cloths, she sings with delight.
Days are filled with confusion, my lone walks down the school halls, no one seems to notice me, depression often calls.
Lost on a dark road, no turns left to take,can this really be the end of my confused state. Across the road lies the beauty of a field, my access denied by an invisible shield.
Lost in movement, my focus on the past, depression melts the soul, at this rate I will not last.
Happy and sad, the blue mixes with black, swinging back and forth, noose hung from my rack.
Incoming insults from those I love, rudeness reveals their true intent, pushed down with a ruthless shove.
Loner's are such easy prey, letting me close to you, death will be your stay. I've gone by many names, Jack is my favorite by far, you will find my presence, waiting at a local bar.
I have lived a many years, suffered through many tears. Death was never my end, rebirth granted time and time again.
Killed from within, a mistake from the start, can't you see I don't care, the love of my black heart.
Left for another man, my dreams were shattered, thrown to the wind, torn and tattered. The dismissal of my love, so many years wasted, into a strangers arms, betrayal's bitterness I've tasted.
Don't worry, I won't miss you at all, I have online friends, who continue to call. They never hate me or tell me I'm wrong, the sounds of my typing, such a beautiful song.
Shadows shift as they move from my glance, arrogance fills them, in their condescending stance.
Will someone find me, a body without life, snuffed out in my youth, an end to my human strife. Distorted beyond repair, death echoed in my bloodshot stare.
Haven't we touched on this, why must we continue on, another attempt to end it all, was this truly the final call.
Remember not my past transgressions, release this yoke from me, Sin instilled from my birth, my grotesque nature must flee.
My grand partner, who loves my dismay, pulling and ripping away, he throws my life astray. His bargain rings in my ear, total destruction in store, his plan is quite clear.
Left alone in a corner of a room, depression seems to always loom. Mistakes often come to revisit the gloom, my repeated sins in this dark room.
Innocence taken in the blink of an eye, all the mourning in the world will not relieve my cry. Children and educators taken without remorse, uncontrolled evil of man, such a regretful course.
Hunched in the corner of my room, alone and afraid, screams of terror echo in the hall, the feeding frenzy at nightfall.
Evil fills the room, hatred at each glare, they throw lies at me without caution, such deceptive flare.