5 February 2026
the pharmacist knows my name now\nwhich is either intimacy or failure\n\ni count them into the bottle cap:\ntwo white, one blue\nthe blue one makes me forget\nwhat the white ones are for\n\nyou ask if i took my meds\nand i love you for asking\nand i hate you for asking\nand i swallow them dry\nbecause the kitchen is so far away\n\nthere is a specific loneliness\nto being cared for\nlike being seen through glass:\nsafe and so separate\n\nthe pills work\ni think\ni forget what it felt like before\n\nwhich means they work\nor i'm just tired\nor it's tuesday\nand tuesday feels like this
prescription refill day • Opuss № I