10 July 2012
I try to hide my loneliness again but I guess it's just one of those days when my acting is not as good as every other day. I wish you would simply understand that spending time with you is what lifts me up and give me some peace of mind. I only then feel that you are mine and I am yours. I messed up before and passed on some treasured moments that we could have shared; allowing 'friends' and close 'family' members to take a huge part of my life. I realized that this was hurting me more than you and I really long for our time together. I told you so many times that I really want to spend time with you. But again and again you go on with your plans and outings. Having fun all day and till the late hours of the night. Then you come home ready to play? Why am I your last chore of the day? At least try to come early maybe we can just hold hands for a while as a mean of foreplay. 'What's wrong?' he asks. What's wrong is ten years passed and I still don't know What am I to you?
What Am I To You? • Opuss № I