19 April 2012
My heart burst when I first entered into the google imaged skyline
The one that proudly screams we are the city
the one that goes the most go green
Walking down the streets I get this tragic feeling in my soul almost equivalent to the hollow soul on my porch trying hardest to be the loudest of all the crack fiends
Beauty in the bay with organic oranges advertising their gigantes team
The only thing they can root for to fulfill there hipster dreams
Say faggot! What! Did you just motherfuckin say!
Tragedy is how I feel for how oblivious the 5 buck vintage flower skirt wearing, who can sport the brownest boots and act like their not caring, political made up debating over wine while staring
Leaking of a self conscious aroma just as pungent as the smell of sulfur or the description most often used to describe those LA bitches
You know the ones they never met?
Hypocritical is an understatement this G G Bridge City exemplifies
Cold hearts, pale skin, accompanied by to good to be true attitudes, pumping through white headphones and the same dialogue where 4s is mentioned at least once
The area that makes the LA riots seem funny there is such a high per capita lack of gratitude
The never talked about entrepreneur subject now pretty much a pick up line has me gagging with disbelief their mentalities have been warped to that magnitude
Fuck that felt good to vent
A feeling of euphoria hit me today when the realization hit me that their is nowhere in this world that doesnt bare negative hateful energy consuming almost every indivual within the community
Societies so lost tattooing a flag of unjustified and lies of living the american dream
instead of sitting still and breathing in the air, god or whoever blessed us with, while embracing the unconditional euphoria of the present moment
we measure each other with misguided statistics designed by motherfuckers or greed who have made innocent beings bleed in wars they brewed because of the ones in their own heads so they had to embellish whole continents to adjoin
Quite persuasive
I felt so confortable finally understanding that no one creates me
I will do whatever the fuck I want with respect and integrity still in tact
no rules pertain
My want for my father to be proud disintegrated because his pain I can now see
There is no one I want to be but me
Me is who I see
I was asking the wrong questions
How will I make money
When should I marry
Self love and work is a that matters
Work because you need to survive and our economy forces you to in order to do so
Self love creates happiness and projects itself onto others
The right question is how to be happy
Happiness will now forever remain my thoughtless reason of living
This city is now a place for me to be free of the need to be free and the frustration of need!
Suffering I can see all around me and the key is inside you to forget society all together
Because they just want you to fail
Their vindictive and judgmental and that's the truth
Happiness isn't for those special it's for you and don't wait until school or whatever's over
Let it embrace your heart and watch your mouth smile on its own because happiness isnt just felt as a child but it can be within even when grown
Enlightened Sorrow • Opuss № I