Head full of thoughts, rarely expressed. Hoping to find the path I was meant to walk.
The good thing about getting older is that you learn what life truly about, but you only learn that looking backwards. Its just a shame we need to live our lives moving forwards. Joyce Meyer.
Sometimes, to reach the light we must first face the darkness..
Its the small things that make all the difference.
I saw someone on tv, a scientist, posing the question " where does our consciousness go when we sleep?" his opinion was that we disappeared into oblivion in those hours.
Im not one who quotes the bible often but i love Romans 12:2. "Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.".
Why is it that the people that know me the least know me the best?.
It's awkward, the idle banter that we share. There's more going unsaid than not. I'm struggling because I want to forgive you but the wound you left is still raw.
When life leaves us blind… Love keeps us kind. The Messenger Linkin Park.
"It begins where it ends... In nothingness. A nightmare born from deepest fears, coming to me unguarded. Whispering images unlocked from time and distance.
Everyone is always searching for proof. Proof of magic, proof of monsters. Proof of God. I often wonder how the world would react if we found proof of just one of the above.
I'm walking through a busy city street, I don't know where but it feels familiar. I feel a longing in my soul as if I have been robbed of something sacred, something so uniquely my own.
"And there's no remedy for memory, your face is like a melody, it won't leave my head. You soul is haunting me and telling me that everything is fine but I wish I was dead" Lana Del Rey Dark...
I took my first real steps of self expression today, the first in a long time. It felt natural, it felt like me.
I answered a question honestly at work today and was subsequently asked if I was still taking antidepressants ( prescribed for nerve pain) as they seemed to have a positive effect on me.
The week is over, the work is done. Yet there is something remaining, something unsaid between us.
"Choosing not to believe in the devil won't protect you from him!" Sir Anthony Hopkins The Rite.
I fear...... Always..… I fear what I want, I fear life without it. I fear I'm lost in fear itself..
What am I supposed to do. What is it that you want me to say. I can't feel something that's not there. I'm fed up being the one that bridges the gulf of conflict. My spirit has a breaking point too!.
You cannot beat the reaction of children to their birthday presents. My 3 year old nephew opened his big bag of presents opened the first one and said " I already have clothes!" Priceless moment!!.
The only fish that go with the flow are dead fish!.
Why is it the ones we love hurt us the most. Is it because we love them so much or is it because they know exactly how to hurt us?.
I know it's not for us to question "the Plan" but there are some days where you can't help but stop and think "is this really my life?".
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and wisdom to know the difference..
" Sometimes a person we love, through no fault of their own, can't see past the end of their nose" Mary Poppins.
Don't you just love those moments when you all of a sudden just feel content.
Don't mind if I do, I'll have mine in the form of the new iPad please. Today is gonna be good!.
Your always there, waiting watching for the perfect moment to strike. What is it your waiting for. A moment of weakness, a moment of joy.
"You have lost yourself in dreaming. I have lost my self in you!" Enya I can't decide if I'm the dreamer or if I'm lost..
When did the well being of a person come to mean so little. We are operated on and then sent home a few hours later with paracetamol!. Where has the caring side of medicine gone?.
Ending the night with my 3 year old nephew and 7 year old niece singing happy birthday to me has to be one of the happiest I've had in a long time. The best kind of love is unconditional.
Trying to be in the world but not of the world..
I see you when I'm driving, I see you when I'm walking. For a second we catch each others eye and in that awkward instant I wonder who you are, what your day has been like and if your happy.
Positive.Mental.Attitude If you don't have it try like hell to pretend you do. I'm trying to use this but I can't help feeling its not my attitude that needs adjusted.
Try not to be living at work but work more at living..