26 February 2013
When we first met i knew "this is HIM" Id been searching for awhile thinking id found HIM But all the while I was blinded by my desperation Now i see they are no match for HIM they never were He left he came he laughed he cried and then near the end my tears he'd dry He said he wanted to be with me I had never believed all though i knew he was HIM that he'd tell me quite yet Out of pure joy i told HIM it back and we sat and discovered But then we were afraid as this was the first time for me I told HIM the next day that i only wanted HIM because he wanted me He said he felt the same way that he wasn't hurt but then the next day he showed me that in reality he needed me My secrets he told his mouth held no bounds I asked HIM why and all said was "because you didn't need me" My mouth was silent for many days I couldn't will myself to speak any words to the one who was HIM but had yet betrayed me His number glared on my phone but after what he did i wouldn't call I was lonely one day and out of pure craziness i called A voice i didn't know answered so i hung up Right away, where had he gone I still wanted HIM I realized then that i needed HIM But i don't think he needed me any longer The whole summer he was out of my sights did not let the world know he was here as if he had disappeared I always thought he would come back for me, now that im ready for HIM But he fell for her and wasn't the same I felt like a third wheel He was different wasn't the guy i knew Wasn't HIM anymore at all For a long while i suffered I tried to pretend it wasn't important That i didn't care and i tried to get over HIM I thought of how he betrayed me so many months ago and i tried to convince myself he wasn't HIM Even though it was, i did And he was I rode in the backseat not knowing which road he'd take me I never saw HIM anymore But when i suspected id be seeing HIM i dressed accordingly When he said "you look different, you're finally growing up" What did that mean Had seen me as but a child before Is that why But now i was almost a teenager Now i was ready for him and something told me he was ready for me Now the girl he loved five times She proved interest in another And now they are no more This news came to me but today and i feel as though all the suns rays are on me Now i have another chance Now i can see HIM as HIM again I will open up my heart To HIM Maybe he will do the same If he does i wont be scared this time around This time im ready I know now the pain caused by not Saying yes to HIM I wont hold back Not ever again Because he will come for me again I just know it And this time i wont deny His right to need me I wont deny HIM
PS THIS IS A TRUE STORY THAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED TO ME
HIM • Opuss № I