Life
(L)ove (I)s (F)or (E)veryone.
I am a sadistic, controlling, manipulative F U C K!!
(L)ove (I)s (F)or (E)veryone.
I have not been saved. I have not been forgiven. I thought i was lost. I thought i was broken. I felt hopeless and empty inside. Save me from me and myself. I don't want to burn in this firey hell.
Even if you run away I will still try to make you mine Just because thats how much i need you.
I am a girl. It drags me to the floor. This is not me. Something i dont want to be. I never asked for this. Some how this is who i was made to be. I feel like a guy. I look like a guy.
Roses are red.. Violets are blue.. You have no idea.. How much i hate you...
Dedicated to korn I tell my lies, and I despise Every second I'm with you So I run away and you still stay So what the fuck is with you.
I use to have a friend Her name was Lyric She was my only friend.
I tried to quit once before. I couldn't do it. I lost control. You dragged me out the door. I was alone shaking in my sweat and tears. My heart was bleeding. You were never there.
Real guys are strong real guys dont cry no matter how hard they try real guys are controlling.
There was a cute little dog so i reached out to pet it. I felt something crawling. So, i looked at my hand and i saw that my hand was full of black specks like bugs crawling around.
I am alone. Nobody knows. No one cares. They just stare. If someone asks. It will pass. I will lie. To their alibies. If i reach out for help. They will stomp my heart to the ground. If i get a flirt.
It is under my bed. It is in my head. It is in the walls. It walks down the halls. It seeps through the screen. It will make a scene. It will make you scream. Am i seeing things. No one will believe.
Its over. game over. It's time to move on. They're never coming back. You lost them. You lost yourself. Your last warning shot. Has failed to attack. Stop thinking about it.
Im sorry for pushing you around. Im sorry for screaming at you. Im sorry for everything..
Dedicated to Papa roach. I'm out here on my own. I'm giving it a go alone. I'm begging on my knees. Is there a God to save me. I've been a retched soul. From my heart down to my toes.
Dedicated to Korn With perversion this insertion Came so swiftly Cut the cord from this day forward We'll be drifting No direction, no affection Watch the soul dive You're dissected,...
You are the thing when i can not see. You are the color of my heart when its falling apart. You are the thing when i feel lost. You are the thing i feel on the inside...
I haven't drunk since three years ago. I miss the sting. I miss the taste. I miss how it feels when it drips down my throat. I miss how it hardly effects me.
Most of the time. I am never happy. You can't see this in me. I smile a lot. When im not even happy. I smile because im crazy. I smile because im insane. I smile because im in pain.
I am getting a ranking of 420. Maybe i should smoke some pot. Then try writing some creative poetry. I haven't smoked pot in a really long time. Sometimes i wish i never stopped.
I use to cut. Thats a fact. I use to cut while watching fear net. Hell, i even remember cutting. While, watching the horror movie cutting class. It never hurt. I thought it felt good.
My world is spinning all around. I close my eyes and then i drown. I use to lay in bed with my own sweat and tears. I knew my life was over. I knew i was down and out.
In the past i had a fun day. I hooked up with my raver friend Poprocks and we went out to play. We joined up with a bad crowd. Two guys found me attractive and kind of fought over me.
You guys never mention me. I might just as well leave and go to sleep. Im sick of people ignoring me. I sometimes wish i can just disapear so then no one can see me. Run me over throw me out.
One dark night my friend Andi and i were walking down the street. She saw something strange behind a building. Se we decided to cross the street.
I use to have a girlfriend, her name was Hayley. She looked like a dude, but she was so sweet. She had an awesome personality, just like me.
I am a loser. I am a loner. I am a cheater. I am a liar. I am a thief and im a nobody. I have lost everything and i have no one to blame but me. I can't control everything. I can't remember anything.
I am feeling down today. I have no idea why. I miss you so much. I feel lost in my mind. my head is spinning in circles. I just can't keep you out of my head. I feel trapped in your existance.
I am lost in my life. I dont know where to go. I have no where to turn. I have no where to go. I will go this alone. Someday i will leave. I will not know where to go.
This is for you Shane.. Before i go. I just want you to know. That i can see that your busy. Because when i first started talking to you again i could just tell.
I wrote this poem when i was 15 in the year 2008 because i was going through a really hard time in my life.. I am drowning in depression. I am spinning all around. I am drowning in depression.
and i would also have to say this.. You're a strong person and you have been through a lot and you still do so just keep being strong no matter what happens...
I dont really know what to say about myself except I like gory horror movies and i love papa roach and shinedown. I like to play video games.