7 October 2012
Have to get up Have to be awake Have to get ready For Christs sake
Have to brush my teeth Have to style my hair Have to be prepared For this mornings nightmare
Have to change clothes Have to find my shoes Have to double check I've nothing to lose
Have to wait for her Have to sit by the door Have to be ready For this one she so adores
Have to triple check Have to stand as she arrives Have to walk to the car Air slicing like knives
Have to leave it in the back Have to hold a conversation Have to make her smile There is no contemplation
Have to distract her Have to distract me too Have to distract by talking Not at so blue
Have to hide the tears Have to hide the pain Have to hide myself Show no disdain
Have to keep her from worry Have to keep her up high Have to keep her here I won't let her try
Have to bury my pains Have to bury my fears Have to bury everything To keep her from tears
Have to say hello Have to say goodbye Have to say the right things So she does not cry
Have to remember Have to reminisce Have to remind myself Of her past depression hits
Depression Hits • Opuss № I