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talaxtiva • 7 followers

Your body is like a light, able to hold life.

My body is like a vase; cracked and broken so nothing remains.

Some can be lucky, yet all the same; able to hold seed, then life you can name.

I'm not like you, I never shall be, I'm empty and desolate; no seed to remain.

You may not realize the gift you behold is a miracle beyond what words can be told.

To us whom can't hold a gift so grand, the reality of what we are is hard to be said.

You may take for grant the fact that you can; but remember as well that we can't.

I would give anything to have what you have; fore heartache and despair I know all too well.

The lack of hope and tears are common visitors to me.

So remember to be thankful always for what you can be!

#emotional-poetry #general #infertility #personal-struggle

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tetti2

Jan 21, 2013 at 11:02 PM

I can totally relate although I'm not totally infertile I have had a little boy by ivf. But even now every announcement, birth and scan photo breaks my heart. I'm at the point at the minute where people ask me are you going to have anymore? All I can do is shrug as I really don't know how to reply. Just want to say I hear you xx

Irrational_Kimmi

Jan 21, 2013 at 11:13 PM

@tetti2 aww hun, I can relate. I have polycystic ovaries so the chances of me ever conceiving naturally are quite low as I don't ovulate regularly. I'm not at the point of having kids yet, but I just know that when the time comes it'll be a struggle and it might never happen. It's hard, knowing my body can't do what a women's body should. Luckily for me my man has always wanted to adopt.

tetti2

Jan 21, 2013 at 11:27 PM

@Irrational_Kimmi Ah pcos is one of my issues and is so common big thing is weight make sure u keep it down and fertility does rise apparently (not that I've lost any of late). Ivf worked for me I feel so blessed but I have never lost that what u can only describe as jealous feelings madness really but can't change it. I have 3 siblings that have given birth in last 4 months its been pretty horrendous. If ever u want to chat about it kik me I find talking about it all really therapeutic and helps me work things through

Irrational_Kimmi

Jan 21, 2013 at 11:31 PM

@tetti2 I lost about four stone a couple of years back which has helped with my irregular (and horrendous) periods etc. I was told that when the time comes IVF and/or hormone drugs could help but it would be no guarantee. I do feel jealous sometimes of my friends/relatives who all seem to conceive so easily but I'm not stressed about it at the moment. And whilst I'd love the feeling of being pregnant myself, I also feel pretty good about adopting one day. 😌

tetti2

Jan 21, 2013 at 11:36 PM

@Irrational_Kimmi that is a really good positive attitude to have the ivf should be treated as a journey I've met so many ladies that focus on the negative sides to it and I feel positivity really helps. A back up plan is always good to we was going to go down the surrogacy route if ivf failed, god I remember that conversation like it was yesterday

talaxtiva

Jan 22, 2013 at 3:38 AM

I have an autoimmune disorder that causes me not to ovulate at all. Me and my husband are saving up for ivf. Hoping for the best but always hard as you wonderful ladies know!

tetti2

Jan 22, 2013 at 5:44 PM

@talaxtiva yes hunny one big adventure always with a back up plan it's reassuring that i am not alone 😘 when you reply to a comment be sure to tag our names by writing @then the name or simply tap on the other members comment and it will do it automatically do it comes up in our news feed xx