9 April 2012
I don't understand myself, i'm popular, I really am. It's not because i'm good at everything or i'm "hot" or anything or have everything but because i'm nice to everyone and don't judge people by material objects, looks, or what others have said, but rather, by their actions. So, that being said you'd think i'd have alot of confidence right? Wrong. Around my friends sure but not in front of people, I get a weird feeling inside and can't think, kinda like when I take tests haha. But this is a problem because I missed out on taking drivers ed with my best friend (and she acyually waited for the time period when I couldn't after my seizure to take it so she could do it with me) because at the last minute my Dad said I had to have a job first and I couldn't muster up the whatever it's needed to be mustered up and ask "Jeff" for a job (I have a secured one if I just ask, garaunteed cause' we know him, it's a small town haha). I just don't understand. I hate it (and it's different from hating people, I just hte this trait of mine. I feel that hating peole is like burning down a house to kill a rat). But anyways I digrese. It just sucks you know? Oh well I guess...
I don't understand... • Opuss № I