Green Eyed Difference

I wouldn't want to stare at you until our eyelids fall on themselves and eyelashes lock for the night. I could see myself waking up next to you and stretching my worries away, but I wouldn't want to. I wouldn't want to hold your hand just to have you tell me to stop biting my nails. I wouldn't want you to take photographs of me or try to make me crack a smile. I wouldn't want us to fall in love just to dig our hearts a deeper hole. I just wouldn't ever want you. You are just a fantasy that swings my head back to reality that you, you will never see me the way I've been seeing you. I wouldn't want your lips on mine or hands in my hair. I wouldn't ever miss hearing your voice or miss the smell of you when you're gone. I wouldn't ever want you. I would only want you if you wanted me too.