16 April 2012
Not long after I posted my previous opuss, I received the incentive I needed to leave the office - security kicked me out so that they could lock up and go home...! So I took a long walk back to think and reflect.
It was during this time that I had a moment of realisation, and figured it would be a good time to introduce myself properly to you lovely people with this in mind.
So, I'm Tom, 22, born in Birmingham, moved to Leeds about 4 years ago. My life is pretty much ruled by my work at the moment - I own my own business, which is amazing, it has been going great, and took off much quicker and better than I could have imagined, but I'm under enormous pressure at the moment to deliver big results for this month so that I can make sure all my staff's jobs are secure. I have always been able to cope with pressure before, as if I make a mistake, I learn and make it right; I pay the price and make it right the next time. This time is different, playing with someone else's life is something I wasn't prepared for. I'll get it right though, whatever it takes.
So anyway, my job takes up a lot of time, but I always make time for fun - time for living. In my spare time I love watching films, spending (a lot of) time in the kitchen, going to the theatre, the opera or ballet, and practising Martial Arts.
Overall, I love my life, I have so much freedom, and I'm always doing something. I live on my own in a studio apartment, but that's all I need - I'm so rarely home that it'd be pointless living with anyone else, or having a bigger place. In fact, it's great living by myself, because the place is always clean/tidy, and if I need some time by myself, I can head home and have a quiet one. Otherwise, I spend most other nights out with friends.
I'm single, but it doesn't bother me. The friends I keep close are amazing, so them, coupled with my family, and I have the best circle I could ask for as it is. I'm not going to pretend that I don't sometimes wish I had that special person in my life, but I haven't yet met that one. With my work being so demanding, I wouldn't have time for - and I'm both not bothered by or interested in - flings, and I'm not one for a one-night stand anyway. If I were to meet anyone, it would be for a proper relationship, which is why I'm in no rush - I'd rather wait and make sure I was with the right lady than rush into another relationship that doesn't last.
I don't drink alcohol, and I also don't eat sweets/chocolate/cakes. The reason for this is because I chose to - pure and simple. People think I'm weird for doing it, but I made a choice to live a healthier lifestyle, and it is the self-discipline in this choice that gives me strength to know I can do anything.
So, that's pretty much who I am. Any other week I would be able to smile and state how much I love my life with full sincerity. On my walk home, I thought about my last post - why did I not have the enthusiasm to go home? I realised the answer was because I wasn't living how I want to be living. Everything I want to do now is in this message, but I'm not doing it - my lifestyle isn't as healthy as I want it to be, and I haven't done any fitness/martial arts training in too long, due to time. I tell you this because I want to make a vow here, now, with you as my witness, from this moment on, I am going to make the changes to my lifestyle to make sure that I am the person that I want to be.
Now, that's enough about me, I'm looking forward to getting to know you, so introduce yourself. Today's the day to start living.
This Is Me • Opuss № I