1 November 2012
Finally he spoke, 'I haven't stopped thinking about you since we met. You're there' he tapped his head, 'you're in there and you're everywhere I go.'
'It's not just me then?' she said nervously. He gazed at her and tried to smile. He could hardly believe it This vibrant young woman who had invaded his mind was attracted to him. He couldn't understand what she saw in him. He was far too old for her for a start. He wanted to hold her and to feel her holding him. He wanted to wrap his arms around her and never let go. But he couldn't. It had already gone too far and it hadn't gone anywhere at all.
'Oh Graham' she sighed. I feel like I've known you all my life. There's not a single waking hour gone by when I haven't thought of you and longed to be near you again. I can't believe you have feelings too'. He groaned and closed his eyes yet again. She could see the mental struggle and guessed the reason. 'Is there someone in your life already?' she asked, dreading the answer. He squeezed her hand and nodded, eyes still shut. It was as if he was trying to keep his feelings at bay by not looking at her. As if he might weaken under her gaze.
She tried to keep it together but couldn't do it. The tears started to fall and she couldn't stop them. She felt like she'd been punched in the chest. She'd lost him even though she'd never had him. She sobbed uncontrollably. He was visibly upset and he put his arms around her awkwardly. They were still sat at opposites sides of a table. She buried her face into his shoulder and her tears soaked his collar. She kissed his neck and heard his breathing change. He turned his face to meet hers and kissed her tenderly. She kissed him back through her tears. Her mind was in turmoil. She had been ecstatic one minute, inconsolable the next and now she thought she'd died and gone to heaven. His mind was in turmoil too but for different reasons. What was he doing leading her on. There was no future in this. But still they kissed.
Worlds Apart Pt VII • Opuss № I