19 December 2012
I think about crying a lot...I know that's kinda weird.
I especially think about it when I'm staring at a blank sheet of paper or at a blank screen. I feel the pressure of the tears at the back of my eyes, I feel my mouth contort in the ugly "cry face," but no tears ever do fall.
No, I'm not trying not to cry...I just can't, although I don't have a reason to cry in the first place. Unless being unable to write what I really feel or what I really want constitutes as a valid reason to cry.
But eventually, somehow, I recall how to speak English and what words are available to me in the language, and then I don't feel like crying anymore. I have proof of self-expression, and that's all that I really wanted to begin with.
Blanks • Opuss № I