23 July 2012
I never know what to make of his death. For awhile I felt responsible, like I missed a sign from the universe or something, but I don't believe in all that...spirits and ghosts and vampires and crap....so it wasn't logical for me to feel that way.
Perhaps it was just a coincidence? I don't know. I'll probably never know.
What I do know is what happened...
It was the summer of 2009. My mom had asked me to make a get well card for my uncle, who had lung cancer. He was a smoker. As I was crafting the card, I popped in the new Green Day album, 21st Century Breakdown, which I had just purchased, and I started jamming out. (That CD was disappointing btw). Then this one song came on that really stuck to me. One of lyrics read,"Sending all my love to you."
I thought that that would be lovely to add onto the card to my sick uncle, so I wrote it in and added a smiley face with hearts all around it. The card was officially finished.
The next day, after I had returned from school, my parents broke to me the news that my uncle had passed away. That he had died before I went to school but that they didn't want to tell me because they didn't want me to be distracted in class. My mom assured me though that he had seen my card last night when they had dropped it off, and that he had loved it.
I was heartbroken over his passing away. My uncle was super cool. He was hilarious and silly and really kind...I will always remember him with genuineness.
Later that day I played the track with the lyrics that I wrote in the card, hoping that it would comfort me and that my uncle would hear the lyrics in his permanent state of slumber. I was sending all of my love to him.
As I was looking at the CD cover, determining what number track matched up with the actual name of the song, I discovered that the name of the song was called "Last Night On Earth."
It really had been his last on Earth when he had received that card.
Until last year, I had refused to listen to that song...it made me sad and the whole coincidence kinda freaked me out. I later learned that that song was written by Billy Joe Armstrong to his wife...so that would make the song a love song...not a depressing, death song.
I don't know what to make of the whole situation. It's weird and it's almost too coincidental but it is what it is.
RIP Uncle Jerry
I'm still sending all my love to you.
Last Night On Earth • Opuss № I