27 December 2012
This morning sucked.
Well initially, I was uncharacteristically giddy just thinking about him. Then I started to over-think things.
Between anxiously looking at my phone waiting for his text, and reading, I kept losing hope.
He had said it was okay that I wasn't completely honest with him about something that I felt was a big deal. He didn't think it was a big deal. He had said he wasn't mad, that he still wanted to talk to me...whatever.
He had also said he would text me in the morning.
So it was the morning, there was no freaking text, and hour after hour it was more confirmed that he reconsidered and decided that he would stop talking to me.
I was really sad.
Sadder than I should've been considering that he was a guy that I've spoken to through mostly text for three days.
I wanted to text him, but I didn't want him to feel compelled to respond to me when he didn't want to. And also, I didn't want him to text me back that he didn't want to talk to me anymore. I would have rather had him just forget about me.
Then it was past twelve...twelve thirty I think. He texts me that he just got off work and that he's sad that I didn't text him.
I shouldn't over-think things.
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