2 January 2013
I used to think that I was wrapped around his finger...but I think it's the other way around. He's wrapped around my finger.
Or he's going to be wrapped around my finger.
I was rereading our old messages that we sent through the website to remember if he liked Harry Potter or not and I reread some information that I completely forgot about. I don't know how long ago the situation he mentioned was, maybe a few weeks...probably more like a few months ago, but a girl cheated on him. He thought that she was...I wouldn't say "the one," he's 19, but he said that she thought that he had something special with her, and then she cheated. He was pissed and went through a few one-night-stands before signing up for the website.
We've been talking daily almost incessantly for a little over a week. Multiple times he has mentioned spending the future together. Like "next year" future. I feel like I made it sound like he wants us to live together. That's not the case; what I mean is that he sees us still being friends next year. And I doubted we would be friends for more than a month, but he's so damn confident. He even mentioned us still talking when I graduate college (or University for the English/European people). Evidently he doesn't plan on letting me go that easily.
His endearments have upgraded from just "dear" and "hun" to "sweetheart."
If we even talk on the phone, it's usually at night, but the other day he called me midday and we talked for fifteen minutes. Then that night he texted that he missed my voice and wanted to talk to me.
He called me to say happy new year when he was at a noisy bar with all of his friends, whom still don't know about me. Although nobody knows about him either. I only mentioned him to my friend so she would know why I disappeared if I did (it would be because he kidnapped me).
...I don't think this makes him the crazy stalker that my mind is suddenly trying to portray him as. I'm exhausted and sick so my mind is all out of sorts. But if I were awake and not sick I would just think that he really likes me...that he gets attached really easily maybe? If he's even attached...I don't think so I mean he doesn't spam my phone until I respond. He has his own life. But he seems to really like me...or he's obsessed with me because he's a murderous raping stalker. But he hasn't pried for info on where I live. I know where he lives. I can stalk him...
I don't plan on stopping talking to him, but if my parents find out about him, I'll probably get into serious trouble. I won't be able to talk to him then. Or if I get freaked out as I always do with new friendships, I'm bound to do something stupid to hurt him.
But I wanted an opinion on whether he simply really likes me, is wrapped around my finger (that's bad if he is), or is a murderous raping stalker...so your comments would be very much appreciated. :)
Online Dating Blog 7 • Opuss № I