30 April 2012
If you’re in London right now... it is raining
I can see drops of rain very clearly on my window
Each drop of rain is so clear... as clear as the word ‘clear’ can be...
Looking at the raindrops from my window... from a distance... you somehow feel like if you reach for it,youmight be able to grab.
But that is never true...
Water never stays...
Viriya: How long are you going to be here? ...on my window?
Raindrop: Which one of us are you talking to Miss?
Viriya: I’m not sure... You?
Raindrop: ...I’m not sure how long I will be here Miss. But I won’t stay here for long...
Viriya: Do you have to go?
Raindrop: I am water... as soon as there’s a path... I will flow that way.
Viriya: What if there’s no path for you to flow away? Will you stay?
Raindrop: I will evaporate Miss. I told you... water never stays.
Viriya: that is sad...
Raindrop: Why is that so Miss? It’s natural.
Viriya: It is sad because I want you to stay little Raindrop. You look so fragile...precious...and clear. I want you to stay here and be safe.
Raindrop: How will you take care of me Miss?
Viriya: I will put you in a glass so that you won’t flow away. I will put a lid over you so you won’t evaporate away.
Raindrop: that is sad...
Viriya: Why is that so little Raindrop? I am keeping you safe.
Raindrop: You may say that you are keeping me safe Miss... but what you will do, to me... is a trap. You are keeping me in one place... against my nature...
Viriya: Don’t you want to stay?
Raindrop: I never ask myself that question... I don’t want to know my answer.
Viriya: ok... you don’t have to answer that question.
Raindrop: Miss... do you know why we fall down from the sky?
Viriya: Why little raindrop?
Raindrop: We are teardrops... don’t you feel sentimental when it rains Miss?
Viriya: I do...but I don’t know if other people feel the same.
Raindrop: We cry for you Miss... for those people who cannot cry, we cry for them Miss.
Viriya: People can cry perfectly on their own little Raindrop... we have tear ducts.
Raindrop: Not everyone can cry when they want to Miss... Often, people don’t even know that they want to cry... They forgot that when they were babies...they cry without thinking...they cry when they want to.
Viriya: Because they were babies. Babies are supposed to cry.
Raindrop: Babies are humans right? What is the difference?
Viriya: The difference is that they have grown. Grown humans don’t cry very often little Raindrop.
Raindrop: ...No... The difference is that you start thinking too much. Your emotions became too complicated. People cry from their hearts and not the brain.
Viriya: That is arguable. Emotions are the workings of the brain little Raindrop.
Raindrop: but why does the heart hurts when you’re sad Miss?
Viriya: Little Raindrop...you can’t know more about humans than I do.
Raindrop: hahaha tell me Miss...why do you feel sentimental when it rains?
Viriya: well... perhaps because the sky is grey? ...perhaps because the wind is cold? ...perhaps because of the sound of raindrops? ...or perhaps because of the fresh moistly scent in the air? Or perhaps because I can’t do anything much when it rains... but to think.
Raindrop: Your eyes see the grey sky. Your body feel the cold. Your ears hear the rain. Your nose smells the freshness in the air. You see Miss....? It’s not just your brain that is working. What do you think your heart does when it rains?
Viriya: ...I don’t know. Pumping blood?
Raindrop: probably so. But your heart will pump at a slower pace Miss... When it rains... time will seem a little bit more lazy than usual. Everything tends to go at a slower pace.
Viriya: Is it good to be slow?
Raindrop: Is it good to be fast?
Viriya: I asked you first...
Raindrop: It’s up to you.
Viriya: Little Raindrop...you are confusing me here.
Raindrop: It’s up to you whether you want to be fast or slow Miss. But there is an opportunity cost in everything. When you move forward at a very fast pace...everything to the sides become a blur. When you move too slowly...time will not wait for you.
Viriya: So I am asking...which is better?
Raindrop: It’s up to you.
Viriya: You’re not really answering my question.
Raindrop: Everything is temporary Miss. Like the fact that water will never stay. You don’t have to always be fast or always be slow. You can cry...and your tears will dry. You can see they grey sky, but soon the sun will shine. You may feel cold, but you can always go somewhere warmer. Miss... There is more than one answer to your question. How can I know which one is correct? You should know better than me
Viriya: I don’t know too.
Raindrop: How is your heart Miss?
Viriya: It’s quite...slow
Raindrop: then I think, for now, you have your answer.
Viriya: What is it?
Raindrop: Your heart is telling you that, for now, as it is raining.... enjoy the slowness of time.
Viriya: ...until when?
Raindrop: Until something else makes it otherwise.
Viriya: ....
Raindrop: The rain stopped.
Viriya: Does this mean that you’re going?
Raindrop: I can’t be in your life forever Miss, nor can you always be in mine.
Viriya: Can I have your e-mail? Do you use Facebook? Your phone number?
Raindrop: We’ve talked! That is good enough... Not every Raindrop gets to talk to a human.
Viriya: But we should keep in touch now that we know each other.
Raindrop: This much is good enough.
Viriya: ...
Raindrop: An hour ago...we were strangers. We have nothing more that we can do for each other... Soon I will leave and will never return. I may flow into the ocean... I may return to the sky... I may be trapped somewhere... I may be in a lake... I may be eaten... I may become another raindrop. My story goes on without you in it. ...And your story will keep on going without me.
Viriya: Raindrop...it doesn’t have to be that way.
Raindrop: Knowing you was good enough
Viriya: ...
Raindrop: I am water...
Viriya: ....
Raindrop: I never stay.
It rained...
And it stopped...
Time did go a little slower for me today...
And I enjoyed the coolness of the rain and the slowness of the time...
Resting my eyes...my body...my ears...my voice...my brain...and my heart...
So that they will be ready and full of energy,
When the time comes that I need to be fast again.
Happy rainy day everyone
Viriya
Water Never Stays • Opuss № I