27 February 2013
The darkness was eating me up inside. He's gone. He's gone. He's gone. Those words pounding in my head all the time constantly, I tried to drown them out by listening to my favourite podcast, the Yogpod, or listening to music, Taylor Swift, Ed Sheeran, Area 11, but the words were engraved in my brain. It was my fault as well I couldn't really blame him for leaving me, but I could blame him for jumping straight back on his ex, my ex-best friend, not literally obviously, she was so insecure she wouldn't even show her arms. Everyone loved her, she got everything she wanted, but I was different now, now I hated her, pitied her and she had lost me, her closest friend, her 'sister', all because of one amazing guy who chose her, who, as soon as he had broken with me, had asked her out even though she had dumped him once before. Well I don't need them anymore I have my tears and my pain that I share with strangers through stories on the internet. I have my mother who stands by my side, even though she doesn't understand how depressed I am. I have TV shows, like Merlin and Game of Thrones, where I liken myself to the 'evil' character because I understand them. I have the yogscast who have helped me through the pain even though they don't know it. I have the music that I can blare out to cover the laughs and shouts of happiness coming from my old friends who abandoned me because my brother and his girlfriend are more fun... And most of all I have you who read through this whole rambling 'story', thank you for listening.
Rambling Of Depression • Opuss № I