15 May 2012
I'm in Bali now. It's supposed to be a holiday for me before my reservist. I had planned to meet a friend I had not seen for quite sometime. However, it's not turned out the way I had hoped it'd be. My friend decided to go Ubud before heading to Bali on the 19th. I would have returned to Singapore by then. It's not fun staying at a foreign place all alone. It feels lonely. With no one to talk to and laugh with, holiday feels more like camp to me. On top of that, I didn't save much because I thought I was only coming here to chill out. I wasn't going to do any activities. However, I hadn't taken into account that I would have to pay my bills when I get back. Also, I had promised my friend that I would lend her a hundred bucks for her holiday in Ubud. So, my holiday, my life, is not going as I had planned it to be.
Sigh.
Last night, I chatted with my PIC. She's sick at the moment and I feel uneasy not being near her, pampering and caring for her. Even though it hurts to know that she still wants to get back with her ex-boyfriend, I just want to be there for her. It is my job as her PIC. For life. Why isn't life going well for her too? It seems unfair that such a nice, beautiful and wonderful person has to go through an emotional turmoil. I want to make things better for her. But it's hard. If I can't even handle my life proper, how do I help someone else?
I read that one goes through hardship as a test from God. I hope this is mine, and that I will get my reward soon.
I hope things change for you too PIC. I hope your life gets better, and you find the strength to face the challenges that comes your way.
I hope it changes soon.
I Hope It Changes • Opuss № I