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Burrfoot
Burrfoot • 689 followers

I got incredibly drunk last night. Today I lay in bed staring out the window, thinking.

I thought about how much I would like to have faith.

I would like to know that this life is only the beginning. That there is a reason for everything.

I would like to feel the love of a god. To commit my life to being a better person and have the courage to go to church and lead a simple life.

What stops me?

I don't think wanting to believe is enough? I remember going to church as a boy and feeling warmth, peace but I lost faith as an adult and I no longer believe.

#existential-crisis #general #personal-reflection #spiritual-doubt
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Comments & Feedback (4)

merlin1038
merlin1038
May 5, 2012 at 11:55 PM

If you are still thinking about faith, you haven't lost it you just lost your way my friend. Be brave go through that door again life will slowly get the purpose back. God bless

Burrfoot
Burrfoot
May 6, 2012 at 12:15 AM

I hope so, but then again i don't know how to have faith anymore. I can't imagine how there can be a god yet I can't imagine there not being something. I want the security blanket faith offers, but worry I'm being selfish. Reason tells me there can't be a god and to trust my own morals but they lead me back to questioning his existence.

alexche
alexche
May 6, 2012 at 12:38 AM

Would it make a difference if there was a reason for everything? Most of the time you may not even know what the reason is. And as for God, faith, I don't want to preach but we live in a big beautiful world and I like to believe in people, and just admire the beauty before our eyes. But that's just me

merlin1038
merlin1038
May 6, 2012 at 3:33 PM

It's not about finding a reason for everything but trusting in something other than yourself which inevitably leads to disappointment. It took me 42 years and a whole lot of hurt to learn to trust in God and when I did a whole different perspective of life opened up for me that I know would not have happened otherwise!

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