Oblivious

I'm sorry, I didn't know.
I thought you enjoyed it.
How was I supposed to know...
That no means no?

The night before,
Walking home in a daze.
I didn't know what had happened,
Was it just another phase?
It least it wasn't my bed,
You covered in red stains.

My friends told me to call the cops.
To shut the doors,
And check the locks.
It's only now I find,
You didn't want me to hide.

I was only sixteen.
It should have been my time to shine.
I didn't realise your desires
Were more important than mine.

Every fat prick with long hair,
Would make me shiver at a stare.
It wouldn't even be you,
But there is not a thing I can do.
With every similar face
Comes a haunting memory.
When someone breaks my heart,
It's you that I see.

Sometimes I'm thankful,
For it could have been worse.
I could be dead somewhere. Rotten.
Lying in a ditch. Forgotten.
You could have been a stranger in an alleyway.
Someone who'd do anything to get laid.
A simple no wouldn't be ignored.
My throat slit before I could shout,
Rape.

But you were my friend.
And it wasn't life that I lost.
My death was inside.
My trust, the cost.

So next time he doesn't hear your pleas,
Ignores your tears, and wants you on your knees...
Kick that fucker in the balls!
Because its your life!
And it's your rules!