If I Saw You Earlier

Chapter 17

" what do you mean?". I was in love with him and this night felt so right.
I wanted her more than anything.

" if anything goes wrong I will lose you". He sad with sadness in his voice. I was not sure if he loved me any more. He didn't want to sleep with me.

" what would go wrong? You know what leave it- I want to sleep". I said it and went to the bathroom. I shut the door behind me and tears started to come out of my eyes. I wept them with the back of my hand. I walked towards the shower, turned it on and stated to cry.
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His side

I didn't want to reject her. In fact I wanted her more than ever. She was just scared. I saw it in her eyes and if she by any chance got pregnant tonight, hell will be on earth.

Every demon would say she belongs with John, because of the history.
Every angel wanted her because ( if ) she carried my child.

I did not want this. She was my everything and it was my fault that I fell in love with her. My fault she can't go to heaven. If she didn't know I excised she would probably be in heaven.

I stopped thinking for a moment. Then I heard the shower. She hadn't taken a towel from the wardrobe. In fact she just stormed in there. I heated that, I knew she cried. What else was she doing?

" baby, let me explain". I said in a gentle voice, yet high enough so she could hear me.
" leave me alone ok?! I ant a guy who wants me back, not a guy who hides things from me or tell me a but not b! It's not fair". She said it in a cold weak voice.

" you know I can't leave you like this. I want to hold you, please come out of there". The water stopped and she came came out with read eyes.
" I want nothing from you, I want to sleep". She said it coldly, walked by me and slept on the bed.
I turned the light of, and I realized she was taking her clothes of.
I took my shirt of and sat on the bed. Just the look of her laying there made me touch her hair.

" don't".
" why not? I thought this was what you wanted, am I wrong?".
Silence. That was all I got from her. I turned to face the other side, not hers and started to regret everything I ever done....