Repentant Serenade

I'll understand if you can't do it
Forgive my rotten ways
The things I spoke behind your back
During my deepest darkest days

I'm offering, if you want me gone
I'll gladly turn my back
And let you shower it with blades
Just like my own attack

Some of you want me to change
But change the hardest way
Taking some of my own pain
Every single day

Some of you want me to suffer
To swallow my own words
You want to die? You want to go?
Well gladly do, but do unheard

Some of you want the old 'Me' back
But you don't understand
The cruel soul that I projected
Was born of whiplash by your hand

And then there are some of
Who are ready to let go
And move on, forgiving what I did
Forgetting what they know

And you're right, you guys, you all are
Every point of view
But you don't seem to get
All the pain you put me through

My rage was not born of puberty
Of mood-swings, petty strop
It came from a long boiled grudge
Against neglect: I'm no prop

So maybe I should've spoken out
So maybe it's my bad
But you are my friends after all
The best I ever had

There's no point bringing it up now
The pact is gone and made
And I have reached the bitter end
Of my Repentant Serenade