Friend

I am happy one day a month,
and I think that is enough,
14th every month;
I got a 750 TL in a credit card;
at 4 am, at middle of the night,
I don't sleep on 13th and eagerly wait for 4 am.
Then I shop online till I doze off.
It's the most happiness high I ever get.

Today though..
My dear friend's present arrived.
Seeing her happy,
something long lost for me arisen;
appreciation,
appreciation of someone who isn't obliged to,
who's not your dad, your mom or pup..

It's been long since someone called me randomly,
just to chat,
only maybe my aunt.
I can see where this is going,
a real loser I'll be seemed.

But truly;
I'm bleeding for a friend.
I've never been alone before,
in such a way.
I had a sweetheart in kindergarten, was just seven.
Never been the popular girl but I had my weirdo friends around me all the way.

Don't know how this(I)'ll end up?
Not that I'm home 24/7..
Still can't say
I 'meet' more people than the salesgirls/salesboys I see everyday.