Pain

It's inevitable. . . But it still finds us or our actions and choices create it. . .
You can take paracetamol for a headache, or morphine for that really strong physical pain but how do you mend internal pain. . A broken heart?

I've never been good with emotional or internal pain. . . It's always had me alter myself negatively so that I'm prepared for the next time it happens. . . I've turned cold & numb in the past.

However now iCan say that iFeel pain & all iCan think about are ways to release it whilst also making myself better. iWrite this whilst my heart is full of pain. . . My eyes heavy because of sleepless nights but deep down inside me iHave some sort of calmness. . Nothing lasts forever a voice in my head tells me. . So iKnow I'm going to be better.

To nurse this pain I've taken on the fitness route, I'll jog the pain out & I'll consume what's healthy. . . I'm done with fighting fire with fire. . . I have to start getting better & not bitter. . . Cos iAlways end up hurting myself.

I don't know how long this will take. . . But trust me iKnow it'll get better. . And so will I. So for all the pain you've inflicted on me. . . iSay Thank you. . . Because though my eyes are teary at the moment . . . My emotional & physical state is under construction. You were just an instrument used to cut the diamond within. . So your time is up. . . I release you from my heart with no bitterness. . . iPray that karma never finds you, but iWish you peace, love and light instead.

Thank you for helping the Universe create a dime such as me x