So Many Tears. Too Many Tears.

Normally, if I tell myself to stop crying, I can. But right now…right now I can't stop myself. My throat's constricted and tears keep rolling down my face by the bucket load. I'm dead inside. I don't know, I feel like the emotion's been scooped out of me. I don't know what to do with myself. I can't do anything but cry. Sob and sob and sob and not tell anyone. Not let her know how bad I feel. Put her first. Don't be selfish. Give her what she needs.

I'll deal with my own emotions on my own, to allow her to deal with hers.

This fucking hurts.