Woke up earlier and for half an hour mum was talking really fast, shouting when she was trying to talk, going crazy and saying how I shouldn't trust ANYONE; especially not men, and looked as if she was about to explode right in front of me - I felt my heart going, slightly shaking and my chest tightening as if I was preparing to have a panic attack.. I can hear mum speed talking to Lucy about how she is neglecting Charlie, and how he deserves to be in a loving home - metaphor for herself? - .. She is saying how everyone is more like dad than she thought, and how everyone seems to be on his team - against her - it's actually getting pretty scary..
I opened my eyes to a dark night, peace gently cracking as the dawn awoke myself and my sister, Lucy, as my parents were discussing certain circumstances. Shouting, screaming, crying - I felt like going downstairs to see what was going on, but my mind couldn't control my body. I remained still, and my head burst into flames as I heard a massive bang - then silence. Nothing more happened. My heart palpitated rapidly, my chest receding and contracting faster than I could breathe, sweat arising from my forehead. The silence was killing me. Talking began to develop, as if evolving from the silence.. Gently, hesitantly, forcefully pushing against human will; not wanting to, but needing to for survival. I couldn't hear my mother's voice, though I could sense her presence.
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