This Is Why I'm Not In Love

Broken hearts,
Shattered glass,
All a part of what I thought was my past...

I gave you chances,
You used them all,
Sadly contributing to your own downfall...

I'll stand here strong,
Head held up high,
This will not be a day where you see me cry...

Jovial memories invade my dreams,
I look at your picture rage,
Remembering all the poems I sent you.. Shredding them page by page...

All this anger draws me near to tears,
But I rebelliously blink them away,
When people ask me how I am, I just reply.. Okay

Inside my chest my heart is shattered,
What seems like a million pieces puncture my lungs,
I find it hard to take a breath without thinking of you,

But then I remember,
You've forgotten me, about us, I wonder if you're asking yourself why?

Why did you forget?
How did you forget?
Forget what passion and love meant to us...

Rain cleanses the earth today,
Showering me with tears from a broken sky,
I stand asking myself why?

Why did I put up with you,
Was I naïve to fall in love,
Love that I thought was true...

Love filled with passion, joy & smiles,
Love that I would walk a thousand miles for, for you...
For me... Love that I thought would last an eternity,

I jumped on hope's ledge for us...
I now look back..
Back at how foolish I was,

I sat on my bed,
Alone in my room,
While pondering thoughts filled my head of you...

I stared at the moon til 3 at night...
Still thinking of you,
Squeezing my pillow tight...

I would've ripped it to shreds,
From pure anger & rage..
But then I remembered I should act my age..

So I remained calm,
Alone & assured...
I wouldn't cry now... I was temporarily cured...

So I changed the status & let the world know...
& sure it's not official
But that they didn't know...

I'll make my decision,
On whether to leave,
But right now what I need most,
Is pure quiet & peace