Our Beautiful Words

Caution: Brutal Language

Calcium deficiency
Is kicking my ass
Gym is making it worse
My bones are becoming glass

No milk to keep them strong
No nutrients to keep me healthy
I don't like fruits, peanut butter, or milk
And my sicknesses are stealthy

Sore muscles
Weak bones
I still go
Usually without meds or phones

The pain I get
Is what I deserve
But sometimes shit happens
Like my deficiency curve

Run, stop
Head pounds
No good water here
It must be found

Try to reposition
Instant spikes
My legs protest
Against my hikes

Try again
And continue on
I'm not giving up
Until I've won

Soreness and calcium deficiency
Put up a fair fight
At least it's only my legs and feet
Not my arms and stomach all night

Stay still
Take a breath
Put a little pressure on
Wanna go meet Death

Walk all day
Toss all night
How shall I survive
With fires alight

Try, try, try
And move on with it all
It's what I've known
Since I was 4, and I had my first fall

Emotional, of course
I wasn't as clumsy then
Daddy promised to be there
I'd see him for the first time, waited in the den

Long story short
He never came
And I appointed myself
As the blame

Not good enough
Not special to him
So I worked, and still do,
To accomplish every whim

Grew up
In a snap
And with my body aching
I shan't put up with this crap

I will it so
Constantly fighting pain in my world
Without pills or remedies
But with our beautiful words