07-01-13

I sit here alone with that glisten to my eyes.
All becomes hazy as I think through my life.
Have I ever done anything I wanted?
The answer I don't know cause I still hold me back.
I try to blame it on everyone else, when I know, you know and they know that it's been me from the start.
I look around begging for change, when I know deep inside its only me that can solve this.
I crumble and I'm weak because I'm scared of being alone, grasping for that sight of something that's gone or wasn't there before.
We say new year, although I'm still my old self.
This is no motivational scrawl, of how I'm gonna change.
This is me right now, always the same.